My Wan De Full Weekend...

Haben had so much joy for a long time, Happiness can be easy too.. Especially with people u love. Spend my so call full sat with dearie, went to watch Kungfu panda with dearie and shopping. Hee..hee.. though he fell aslp halfway, (".) then went back home for dinner, and Sun he still join me and mami for shopping.. Though both of us are tired but happy oh, xinku dear liao.. he must be bored for e whole day.. :)

Kor's wedding day is getting nearer le, this coming sat will be his big day.. yahoo!! new family member aboard.. So excited for them, though there's a lot arguement in bet but this is part and pieces of life. Our House are decorated for this big event. Today is Esther's Op day too, wonder how's things getting on, actuali wana go to give her moral support de, but becoz of kor's wedding. Mami say cant go hospital to visit. Hope things are smooth, everything ok.. waiting for somebody to update me..

Beautiful SundaY ...

Since yesterday I got very bad bodyache sia, my shoulder n my back.. Used mami's Ucozy to massage, Shiok la.. But at night .. Aches like HELL lei, u wouldnt believe it.. Touch lightly also Pain.. Mami help me manual massage for awhile n apply "Go Yeo" for me, til now still aches lei. "Cham liao" ... Tmr going for 3 steps 1 bow, its like yearly event for me.. pray that mami will be in gd health, Family will be safe n sound, Ppls whom i love will be happy ... :)

Early morning, Pa and Mami went to Marina Bay Sand wit aunties n Uncles.. Guess wic part they go?? Yea.. Casino!! ha ha.. For me, I wouldnt not spend $100 to go in lo, waste $$ lei.. I dont gamble de.. but they happy jiu hao.. Today Home alone 1 lo, ha ha!! Kor juz went out to his gf house.. He power sia, last night work night shift, oni slept a couple of hours then wake up liao.. Me cannot de lo, I will stoned whole day.. Peaceful at home lo,wit music with me..

My Agenda for today:
1) Meds card doned, read through it
2) Pharmaco revision ( Mock Test on Thurs)
3) Housework (Hang clothes, sweep/mop floor)
4) Go jogging in e evening (hopefully still hab energy)
5) Prepare own dinner
6) Bio revision
7) Meeting Zhou Gong by 11pm.. :P

My hectic Week

I nearly suffocated from e busy week. Doing Project and school work is driving me crazy. WTH!! this is only e 4th week, feel so breathless.. Every morning going through e tough process, apart from walking long distance frm home to interchange + a super heavy bag. How i wish got someone send me to sch.. maybe if kor is workin night shift, i will drive to sch ba.. cannot take it liao, I stil hab 2 yrs to go, minus attachment la.. at least make me think tat is faster a bitz. Still trying to cope wit sch life. My poor dear got to listen to my crap everyday. Reali touched by him, i stay up til very late on wed night to do my project, that day he got ot til 10+ then reach hm.. He acc me to finish til 1am then go sleep. Then next day wake up early to work + OT again. Haiz finally project finish le, its a relief lo, but not reali satisfied wit my presentation. really horrible.. very disappointed sia. But.. what can i do? its over le.. Move forward aana!!!

Today see shyanne really forget all my stress n depress.. So cute!!! Really my baobei lo, love her so muchii.. Finally took photos and carry her.. ai yoz, oni left din kidnap her ... wahahaz! If oni i can hab my own cute n healthy baby.. * ok i know.. stop dreaming* Today suppose to meet him too but .... ya, he got OT again, its been a whole week liao. Can he dont be so busy? hahahaz!

It'sss Fri..Day!!!!!

Mama Zhui Da...So happy u like this, hope it helps to relieve ur aches.. Love U lotz!!























First Class Photo @ NYP, NR1151 .. Like tis class, but sadly we will oni be tog for 6 mths...










Subgroup ...
Though we are from e same class in ITE, but life in NYP bring us closer.. :)










Tomorrow gona be busy but lookin forward...

Tired, Tired, So tired ...

This whole week hab been a busy and tiring week. My Whole body like dont belong to me le. Almost everyday reach home late. No mood to do anything, dont really feel like eatin, but eat juz for e seek of eating.. Projects and school work is stressing manz. Argg!! I feel so lousy, Pimples outcome.. tink too stress liao + dont sleep well at night. What can i do? Got e Heart wana do homework, revision and research.. But No enough energy. :( Same to him, this whole week, we din meet.. haiz! He also OT most of e days, suppose to meet this sat but he got OT.. *sad* wana meet Sun, but i got project. hopefully next week got time.

Today start our GSM liao, Malay class quite fun la, but difficult lei. like Ta Ti Ta Tu when i speak lo.. Nvm, today oni first lesson.. Jia You Jia You Jia You!!!!

Beautiful Day ~

E flower tat we bought ..

Big Event for Meeee .. :P

Hee.. Luv e weather today, cool cool de, outside rainin but my heart is full of sunshine.. Wake up earli brighten up by msg and when i log in fb, my buddy tag a lovely song.. its juz like greeting me good morning.. :D

Friday is Ah Ma's 3rd year death Anniversary, Couldnt make it for e morning prayer but rush down after school to visit her.. Hao Xiang Hao Xiang Ah ma, Dunno she can hear me ma.. Tears fightin in my eyes, keep controlling it.. Time flies, Ah ma leave us for 3 yrs le, but I still feels tat she is still around us.. Ah ma, We ("v") Uu..

WooW.. hab been going out for e past 2 days, Sat went to collect my Nike Run pack, going for a 5km Marathon this coming 7 may.. Dont knw if i can make it, but this hab been e thing tat i wana to go for. Not wanting to prove anything,Juz a challenge for myself. :) So doesnt reali matter e outcome, but i wana enjoy e process. Yap, My mami went wit me to collect it, afterwhich we went to visit Ah Yee @ her workplace, She has been working there for many years lol, but we hab yet to go see her. Can see that she is happy to see us, though she is busy and hab no time to entertain us. I alwae thinks tat "Its not e Quantity, Is e Quality and d Heart". Went shopping around wit mami aftertat, can see that she is very happy, bought her clothes n be her maid that day, watever things she bought i carry everything. hahahz! So she is e taitai for tat day. Though i m super tired but happy as well.

Yesterday was Stef bday, went out to celebrate for her.. Went to have high tea and watch a movie.. Though juz a few of us, but can feel tat its a heart warming celebration. We bought her fav Sunflower also. :D It really feel great to see everyone around me, Happy and blessed.. Enough of all e fun, Today is gona be a super busy day for me. Feel so guilty loz, so much school work to do and i juz throw aside for e past 2 days. Today must work on it liao. Jia You!! Jia You!!

Good Friday ..

Today is "good" friday .. but to me, not good at all.. Home alone, everyone got their own programme but not me. One thing is becoz no mood also. Suddenly feel so emo.. 3 days of weekends.. but dont hab e feel. Yesterday bio dont even understand a bitz lol, dont knw how lo. wana get someone to teach, but dunno who. Sometimes i reali regret, Y? when i hab e chance to study hard, dont work hard.. I am a NT students, still Bu Zhi Liang Li de go take "O" level.. of coz cant make it. I shld knw how much i weigh.. very low morale now. keep pushing myself, but i am not sure how much energy do i hab to keep me going.. BUT one thing for sure.. I AM NOT GIVING TO GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT..
Jia You Jia You Jia You!!!! If i think i can make it, I definately can make it ... Chemistry Suan Shen Mo.. I juz nit more time and patient to conquer it..

NYP life ...

Today is e 3rd day school.. everyone around me hab been asking me, Hows sch? hows everything? I am still trying to cope and adjust.. At e moment, other than stress, lost and not leavin out BLUR.. asking me y stress? hmm.. school lecture is ok so far, understand wat e lecturer is teaching.. but .. start to give myself unnecessary pressure le.. Assignments and projects coming up.. trying my best to focus in class.. Today's lesson is @ 8am, 2nd time late.. make me so rush and gan jiong.. Dont like loz, spoil my mood.. prefer to be slightly early, but as mention, still trying to adjust to everything.. bus timing, getting around the sch and finding for lecture hall and so on.. hopefully, by next week i will or i should settle dwn liao. I am actually a person slow in adaptation, i nit to take some time to get close to a person, and also environment. So as far as i could, i try to minimise movement from one place to another.. Like my previous job, I stayed for 4 yrs before i quit n join my NITEC in nursing.. Hope God will guide me in my 2.5yrs in this sch.. :D

A lesson tat i learnt ...

Wah lao a.. I damn dislike those "Hao Hao Ren" lol.. Pls la, where got such a saint in this world unless u are GOD.. Pik Chiz de lei, Y he always hab to be like "So Nice" make everyone like him.. Let me make it clear..I am not jealous but Find it irritatin.. Trying to say nice words, be nice and "always tink of ppl" Crap la lol.. Its veri Obvious when someone is angry and doesnt wana talk abt it.. Then he still can ask : "What happen? What wrong? Pls la, U aldy know whats e cause liao lol.. Wana act tat u care.. Juz shut it up manz.. Frm my previous experience, If i start to open my mouth, I sure Kana BOMB.. so this time, I juz pretend nothing happen, Juz keep quiet.. And true enuff i save myself frm kana scolding unncessary, U may tink tat he kana rite? U are wrong, Will u scold someone u reali love.. No loz.. whatever it is, dont tink tat i am a hackcare person, No i am not! Juz tat i knw how a person feel when they are angry.. juz dont wana talk abt it for the time being.. otherwise u are asking for trouble.. e arrow will be aim at u.. Maybe e weather is very hot today, everyone is juz in e bad mood.. Wellz..

Orientation Day

Little Card from stef, So touched.. she gave me as an encouragement becoz i am startin a new chapter of sch life.. (tats wat i always say: Its e thought tat counts, not e value of e gift) :D tks tks

Waited this day beri long liao, but dont know y when it finally come liao.. like not excited liao lo. Had a super boring day lei, dont like orientation.. hahaz! yaya!! I am a boring person rite?! No la, i juz dont like this loz, sori to say.. i feel a bit bo liao, maybe its age ma.. hahaz! Now i reali cant wait for class to start this monday.. count dwn to 2 more days. So far so gd.. My class oni got 18 students, though small but ok ma.. + wat reali delight me is e time table loz.. a bit "luan la" BUT.. super hao de.. 2 days start late, best part is mon & tues.. then e latest timin we end is til 5pm.. wah say.. super shiok manz.. thats e PLUS point la, Negative de is e sch damn big til hor.. I dont knw how to comment.. free exercise everyday lo, hopefully can lose weight by e end of 2.5yrs..

Wah!! No joke lei, seriously gain weight liao.. Sianz manz.. all my effort gone. Cant stay at home de loz, keep eating junk food.. naughty gal, where did my discipine go to.. cannot cannot!! Kor's wed coming liao.. got to wear my princess dress.. hahaz! oni for that day i am princess lo, after 12midnight become ping ming(normal gal) liao.. :)

*~Be that light tat Shines~*

My New Luff ...

Wana get a Doreamon Cover de, But Bu She De.. So end up get my melody cover.. only $10 + $8 screen protector.. if i buy juz e doraemon de cover is $18.. See? with 18 bucks i get 2 things instead of 1. Must learn to Save liao.. :D Melody also Cute ma.. hahaz! (Self-consolation) :P Ai ya.. Tot Can get student plan de,but overage liao..:P becoz i need unlimited sms badly lei.. imagine i can use up to 2000+ sms per mth.. oh god! Now must learn to control liao.. BUT my plan got 200 mins free talktime.. hee! can use talk de instead sms.. :D

心情好好噢

Though today's weather is cloudy de.. But in my heart is Sunshine de.. :D Had a good Sunday which give me energy to brighten my mood. Had a good sleep as well.. Really sweet sweet dream, feel like dont wana wake up.. :P We met as plan, went cycling and take a nice walk at ECP.. Thank God, for such a lovely weather, though it started to rain late afternoon, But we had a great great time. He take me with his bike and we went to sing K together. I had a lot of Fun, hope he does also.. Never feel such comfortable feelin with a guy before, in front of him.. I can juz be myself,nothing to hide,I can say anything, dont hab to act "Shu nv"... :D whereas my previous experience, Guys would hab expectation,they will say things like: "want their gf to cook for them lah", want their gf to be sweet la" those stuff. But He is different,He got this "magic" to make me happy n no pressure.. feel relax everytime i am with him. Sweet moments like he will carefully watch me,n make sure tat i am safe wit him. Happy that He share with me his problem and unhappiness wit me as well. What is that kind of feeling ne? Dont know and mystery ba.. hahaz! Juz wana enjoy every min wit him..hehe! Not hoping for anything, Juz wana keep and maintain this relationship bet us. He is like my angel n a gift from God specailly to me.. God ah.. Pls dont wake me up from this sweet sweet dreamsss... :) ~True Love is only Mutual. Yet, it need not be expressed in words. When Love is True, you just feel it ... ~ ("v"v")

杜德偉 - 天真 (邱淑貞演出)

Jealousy ...

-Why does she hab to keep telling me, How gd is He? -Why does she hab to pamper him so muchi? -Why She put so much effort on him? -Why does she hab to praise him in front of me? -Why In her eyes, He is always the prefect / thoughtful one? -Why does he hab to act like a hao hao ren? -Why do my heart ache so muchi whenever i hear abt him? -Why does she tink tat I want her to praise me at times? (asking for it) -Why no matter how much effort i put in, i feel tat i am not appreciated? -Why am i feeling so upset now? She says that becoz i am jealous, but her topic always link to how good he is, how thoughtful he is, how hardworking he is ... Y? Y? Y? Y does he hab to act like a saint, and make me feel like a devil? Juz because i am more independent in first of them, no matter how hard i try, I can never compare with her precious.. (!.!) Y ppl can easily be content and xinfu? Y cant i be like them... She always say i dunno her, she treat us equally.. no bias.. She din know that by saying how well and how gd he is, reali hurts me. She can go til e extend to keep talking abt him, til I say tats enuff, I dont wana hear anymore. Dont she know how i would feel? For instance, Yesterday I wanted to drive to yio chu kang, but she insist to wait for him to wake up, and ask if he wana drive us to yio chu kang and told him that i dunno e way. In e end, He ask me to drive there. So that he dont hab to waste petrol to drive us to and back.. Then oni she say anyone drive is ok.. WTH lol!! Ur Son speaks One word more than I say 100 words.. Can U be more fair to me anot? Can I hab more trust from U anot? Its ACTIONS NOT WORDS.. Dont juz keep saying U trust me with ur mouth, Prove to me that U TRUST ME.. U dont know how ur words hurt me at times.. (!.!) tearing in my heart ..

Monday 4/4/2011

Busy morning, Went back to school to collect Eagles award.. lucky Kor juz came back from night shift, then got car.. so i use lo.. Yipee.. finally drive on expressway liao, pa always scared i not familiar, ask me dont drive on expressway first. today i manage to do it on my own, with esther.. after which we went to do our ezlink card ... yeah! next tues can collect both our student pass + ezlink liao, and we are all ready to wait for school to starts on 18 .. Guess what? I am e guilty one who make mami angry again.. Ya, always me de lo.. dont know whats wrong with her, suddenly the face black like bao gong then raise her voice at me lei, i also dont knw wat hab i done lo.. ???? sometimes still prefer to work, cant wait to starts sch.. if not i at home huh, got to tolerate.. if i talk back, she say i nvr listen la, bad la, nvr care abt her la.. stick to me alot lo, til i sometimes cant breath, i knw she want companion.. becoz she is alone at home most of e time, but at time i go out too often, she will start liao, not happy, face black.. say i always go out.. not at home.. but ... this will nvr happen to kor de lo, stil her precious ma.. she will nvr be angry at him de. Haiz!! Now dont even dare talk to her, wait kana frm her again, i then dont want. beta wait til her mood swing period over first. Sometimes dont knw what to do lo? She say i always dont understand her feelings.. then me lei? who understand how i feel ... *sad*

Sunny Sunday

Went to kovan with Pa & Mami.. for breakfast and do some marketing, This 2 days mami not well, having fainting spell again.. haiz! dunno wats wrong lei, hope i got xray eyes so tat i can know wats going on, Y she keep having this. Everytime go out must be very alert, reali pray that god will watch over her.. hope her health will improve, somemore kor's wed is getting nearer le.. Yeah!! they were juz talkin very long din go overseas le, so i suggested to bring them go HK this yr end.. Must start to save $$ le, hoping to go on my Bday or nearer to my bday, dependin on e sch schedule .. hope can go as plan.. :D so happy.. something to look forward to.. Jia you!! Study hard, Work & Save hard.. hehehe!

Bloggii Time ...

Today went to do rebonding , sianz lol.. waste $$, waste time + got to sit der for 4 straight hours. Sit til my back also straighten liao, backside also pain ... bo bian.. haiz! dont wana look like "Lion Queen", so hab to do ma. Wah.. e hairdresser bu ke qi de cut a lot of my hair lo, i say trim a bitz, she say my hair badly damage liao, keep also no use. Heartache manz. But hahaz, feel my hair so healthy now. Like e salon, service not bad wor, keke! other customer is one to one, for me, one to two.. maybe they tot i dun understand cantanese loz, they were speakin in cantanese among themselves, saying my hair so thick, if one person do by e time finish doing night time liao, but they were saying in a joking way la.. then i started laughing also and agree with them.. hahahaz! Reali feel like a princess there, hehe! Xinku them le, their hands must be beri tired.. Wow..wow!! Exactly 2 more weeks from now, school gona start le wor, dunno how is it gona be.. should i say excited, worried or nervous lay.. mixed feeling ba.. Excited coz my dream finally fulfilled, Worried coz i scared i cant cope, Nervous coz dunno whats gona happen.. Pu Sa Po Bi ar.. Hope this 2.5 yrs is a smooth one.. gona work super doper hard becoz very competitive sia.. Stress ++ ... So this 2 weeks, i beta enjoy all i want first.. Ai yo.. Think recently i pamper myself too muchi liao, bought a lot of clothes manz, keep tinking poly can wear, EXCUSES lol.. I beta see no evil when i go shopping.. No buying of clothes from now til end of e yr liao, but wait i hab to buy a night grown and a pair of shoes for Kor's wedd.. tats it! so happy and excited, its getting nearer and nearer liao, must make myself look like princess.. keke! This morning was telling mami, my BEST frenz Jiahui gona married next yr end, Drea going to get a new flat with her bf, mindy getting married next yr also... hahaha! Then she say "what abt u?" "when's ur turn?" I juz laugh.. dunno, stil nobody wan yet.. wah!! thinking suddenly gd frenz around me all got gd news lay.. Happy for them lo, give them my blessings manz.. :D

我终于可以松一口气了

Cooking Time .. Believe ma? Cooked By Aana Hor! hahaz..

Today is my last day there, finally this day hab come.. To tell the truth, i never tink tat work is tough, to me.. relationship wit co worker very impt. If you can work well together and help one another, work can be easily done. U dont hab to work like mad. Never had gd life everytime i work there, til now i still dun understand.. Y i still jump into tat "HOLE" where i aldy knw tat its there.. haiz! this is wat ppl call.. "Zi Tao Ku Chi".. After i walk out, i really can feel tat the air i breath is so fresh lol, feel so relief and happy. Can you imagine, i am so stress up til i din sleep well and hab enuff sleep everyday. Today reach home, slept e whole noon. Feel so muchi better. Thanks boy for e chat last night, not muchi words, but really feel comforting, Is really nice to hab someone wit me when I m down. :) Dont hab to talk about e topic but juz casual chat is enuff.. hee..hee..! Wee~ My Genting trip is coming, setting off on Sunday morning til Tues.. As i say, short trip can be relaxing and fun too, its a getaway.. (",)v

我很努力的想要笑..可是..

No Matter how hard i try.. I juz cant smile, maybe too many things happen le ba, during work.. I am really very tired, i felt tat i hab to use all my full energy.. Y am i doing this to myself? I keep forcing myself and keep telling myself to be strong, i cant fall so easily.. I reali feel like having a hug from someone, all i need is one sentence "I will be here anytime when u need me" I work so hard i also dont knw for wat? am i happy with wat i am doing? Y cant i be notice and treasure? I feel as if i am suffering alone lei.. no one care n bother my dead or alive.. Whenever there is problem or difficulty i hab to fight very very hard to protect myself .. :(( God ar!! Are you trying to make me grow stronger ... I hab times when i am weak, and need a rest.. Pls!! I dont wana fight alone. I am not sure how she think of me, maybe proud and selfish to her. Does she know tat i hab to clean her backside each time she make a mistake and i got to face her bloody shit face everytime when i try to correct her. God, Can i ask for strength? Can u give me more strength to hang on til this friday.. then i will be set free.. I will am never gona step in there again.

Recently, Kor also got problem.. its due to his car accident tat happen 3 years ago .. this incident has happen 800 years ago lol, who will actually remember this, moreover ... we hab even change a new car le, this stupid party come and find trouble again, look for lawyer want to find kor's fault. Rich ppl are not all but mostly bo liao de lol.. I reali hate rich ppl.. maybe both of us cant merge into each other's life ba..
What's so big deal abt having a lot of $$$ ... some things cant be bought by $$ de.. Can U buy love? Can you buy ur family? can you buy health? Can you buy relationship? Can you buy Care? Can you buy Friendship? Can you buy Time? Can you buy relationship? Can you buy HAPPINESS? If you tell me, yes i can buy any of e above mention wit $$... I dont mind working very very hard juz to get this.. but no!! w/o love, care or friends n family around u,even if u hab lotz $$,its is juz like a pieces of paper... (".)

No bluez on monday...

Today very happy lei, no specific reason .. juz happy lo, lucky no bluez today. Guess wat i was thinking of going for a holidays before my poly starts, came true le.. though juz a short trip, but its a good getaway, i only got $$ go genting lay, hahaz! ya will be going end of march.. Yahoo!! My doc today very funny lo, he ask me to buy lunch lay, then i ask him for e last time, he say nvm he dont want. then after lunch i ask him, doc u din eat ar? he was like, becoz u din buy for me lo, hahaz! then he keep repeating lei, make me so guilty.. end up he go opp buy bread eat.. keke! poor thing ..
Piang this few days so busy with e poly enrolment thing, til i gong gong liao. so many things to do, die ar! haben take passport photo yet, Not much time liao, this fri is e submittion,my god! so rush lay, somemore working. No time to do all this loose things.. stress manz! Lucky today after rush to go create my singpass.. piangz.. oni takes abt 2 mins for e fellow to create for me lo, make me go all e way down to SK.. y cant we do ourselves online. "shang now jin ar" Okii, now super stoned liao..

Juz end my day ...

Veri tired lei, ai yo.. y my energy always used up so fast de? haha.. But had a great day, Went vivo with ling and andrew.. Then we went to watch movie, lucky made e right choice, little red riding hood is a nice movie manz. Hmm.. Can say disgusting (oni some parts), touching + romans, exciting also.. hahaz! juz Go watch it, its worth it.. Actually wana watch BIG MAMA de, tot e show will be funny but ling dont like. nvm, she is e princess ma.. then aftertat we went for dinner and some shopping.. a simple meet up but we had a good time nice chat.. (^v^) Tmr's plan is gona be a bit boring ... hahaz! Time to rest, will be home e whole day.. :D This week is gona be a boring week, both my fav docs on leave.. (-.-"') hahaz!

Busy But Happy Satursday

Wake up early morning went for Medical Check up @ SATA. Yes, finally receive e enrolment package from NYP yesterday liao. Actually wana go check up monday de, but din wana take leave, no becoz i hardworking la, becoz if i dont work, is no pay leave lay. Going to spend a lot of $$ lo for poly, buy books, uniform, and all e blah blah things.. so can save, save can work, work.. Today rec a sweet sms frm him, keke! finally ... :D ok, tat's random...

Later going to meet ling to celebrate her bday with her, bought her present liao, but tinkin wana buy bday cake ma, whats a bday w/o a cake hor? duno lay, maybe i too used to having it every yr le ... my family will usually buy a cake for me on my bday, not say very grand or wat lo, juz to show tat they rem my bday.. tats wat i feel. maybe will go get a small de for her ba. :D

came across this quote frm a frenz's status, tot its meaningful so share it here:

~ Love Cannot always be measured by how long you waited. Its about how well you understand why you are waiting ~

Its my Fav Day ...

TGIF.. Yahoo! finally i manage to survive til today, nearly half my life gone. Had a super doper bad week. Well, Lets not talk about and tink about it liao. ITS OVER ! let it be past tense. Manage to clear what i should clear today. God is still kind to me de. Whole week hab been super tired and always end late after work. All drain out, everyday when i come home, juz dont feel like doing anything and talk, coz i talk enuff for e day liao. til my lip so dry lo, no joke oh.. Just shut myself in my room after dinner and EMO... hahaz! Not la, I like singing, so juz go into Youtube to look at some music video or watch ou xiang ju lol. Momo rite? ya.. i am zai nu ma, hahaz! This is e oni time i can hab time for myself. So i am enjoying it. Day 3 liao, still no action, waited til i feel tat no point liao. . if he really put me in his heart, things shouldnt be like tis. Everyday we juz msg gd morning and gd night tats it, i feel a bit bored liao. I tink he also. hoping tat he will do something but he didnt. Maybe its still not time yet to meet e right one. Or i should give up liao, stop hoping for anything so tat i wouldn hab disappointment. Just focus on what i should be doing now. Think tats e best way ba... ^^

No Words can describe how i feel now....

What sh*t hab i got myself into? I juz wana work to kill time and earn some pocket $$.. seriously i dont tink i deserve this lol, I really cant take it liao, 4 yrs ago is like tat.. after 4 yrs i rejoin as temp staffs is still e same lol.. Y do i hab to face all e mistake or negligence things tat e previous staff hab overlook? Y do i hab to be responsible for all e explaination and scolding frm e patients? best part i dont know what is going on and happening.. but i hab to ans all these. What is this manz?! somemore nobody wana take responsible to all these.. I really had enough lo.. Being in e clinic, which i rarely been there before and it has been 4 yrs ago. I got to be responsible to teach/guide new staffs, other than routine work, got to overlook everything in e clinic, ordering stocks, results and many many.. I am really tired lay.. I so xinku train one staff, after she know everythin or most of e operation in e clinic le, end up take her away to another plc. Get another new gal, this time best.. One who claim she got experience, things i tot her she cannot rem than claim tat i din teach her, talk back somemore. tats y i predict i sure hab a bit problem teachin ppl who are senior de. Ask me things tat i cant ans, when i say i dont know she give me a face. HELLO! am i suppose to know everything, i am juz a temp staff lei. Wah kaoz a!!

Today lol, another blue black case, piang a! MY PROBLEM again? not going into details abt tis. My doc is good la, at least listen to me, was telling her abt this fellow problem. she also find me ke lian lo, why shld i be facing all this. At least e words tat she say make me feel comforting lo, someone understand my feeling. I was like talking very loudly in e clinic, tats always my problem lo, I tend to talk loudly when i am angry or excited.. dont know y, then my dr will remind me,ask me to Shhh...

At least feel beta after i write out all this feeling....

How i wish :

When i am tired , I hab a shoulder to lean on ...
When i am happy, I hab someone to share wit ...
When i am sad/down, i hab a hug/ ear to listen...
when i am angry, i hab someone to cheer me up ....
when i hab problem, I hab someone to talk to ...

My dear, where are u? U rec my signal ma tat i am missing U, quick come to me... :((

Black Tuesday ...

Tot today locum doc (covering doc), so will be a bit slack after so muchi work yesterday.. Beside patients still hab to receive and unpack e stocks.. So tiring manz, haben recover from yesterday tiredness.. Today also busy, hai shi busy.. Wo de ma ya.. Earli morning beisdes my norm breakfast (breads + coffee), still got a big bomb lo, first time work with this doc, so dunno his pattern. He come into e clinic like just eaten a big BOMB, his face so black like charcoal.. haha! funniest thing is he told me he got lost in MRT stat, dunno which exit to come out from.. Mahahah! ( of coz i not so bad Laugh out loud la, but in my heart laughing oni) oops! :P think of it still very funny lol, but later part of e day he is better le, tats y i always say dont judge a person by its cover becoz you haben get to know e person ma.. he/ she may not be as bad as u think.. BUT wait... even if she looks pretty and nice initiately may not be tat nice oh.. character also can be sucks de. ( its true facts)

YA, receive a super doper sweet sms tat every girl or i would say i wish to receive de.. This sweet frenz of mine, by the way is a guy .. He send this whole long list of sms, it doesnt matter but wat matter is e contents.. It really touches my heart, He is going to NS soon, but he is worrying for e gal tat he likes, juz like a guardian angel.. He is askin a favor frm me n e others, to look after this gal, and in e sms it wrote all about this gal character and behavior.. which i find it very touching.. how i wish will hab a guy who knows me well, wat i like, dont like, when i am tired what i would do/behave, when i am sad..... WAH!! very Xi Xin Lei.. All he want is to protect this girl and want her to be happy.. Really hope that he can win her heart lol.. Envy envy envy lei.. Orrrrr!!! How i wish to be that xing fu de nu hai ... ^^


~If its a dream, then I'd rather not to wake up anymore. For it is e only way i can be with you, with no doubt, no fear in my heart but a trust that someday you will be mine and a lifetime together. JusT U ("and") Me ~

Low -->High Spirit ..

Yipee yaya yipee yipee ya~yipee yaya yipee yipee ya~ yipee yaya yipee yipee yaya~ yipee yipee yaya yipee yipee ya~

Morning was really a blue for me, yea.. i know its Monday!!! tell me abt it manz. Treat myself a cup of upsize coffee frm WANG.. to brighten up my day.. ahahaha! Wellz.. really no mood lo, like dragging myself to work, but no choice for e seek of $$.. not fully la, at least comforting things is I am working wit wonderful perm docs, others put aside dont say la.. Ppl always say "BAI REN CHENG JIN" thats wat i am doing now, moreover i am just a temp staff no authority juz do my job can liao, other things dont care y spoil my mood becoz of silly issue.. Waiting for End of Mar to come.. and ..........

New chapter of life begin... (not marriage life though)haha! Yeah! e great GREAT news is I am accepted by NYP le.. Yahoo... though pa say cfm can get in de coz we hab COM, but my heart still feel unassure til e final acceptance result come out... keke! Gona study very very hard, its not gona be easy but will do my very best. Heard a lotz of comments given from frenzs around me, some encourage, some ask me to think through.. I am not sure how this route is going to be, but i wana try, this is what i always want. 10 years of my dream.. thinking back, how i climb up one step at a time, i am not and would NEVER give up. I choose to be a Nurse.. I once heard my ADON share this : How good a nurse is not judge by how good ur result is, or how well you do in ur studies or skills.. Its how you treat the patients as though u are taking care of ur close one. Which really leave a great inpact in my heart. Which is very true, I cant say tat i am the good one, but i want to work forward to be the one.. Thats e goal in life. Thank god for giving me this chance. (",)v

Reali disappointed and upset ...

I really dont know what should i do, I shouldnt say all e time, but most of e time.. Mami always say I am rude to her + i throw temper at her, which i find tat no lol.. sorriee to say tat at times she reali very fan lei, like to ask me to do things i dont like,ctrl me ... wo yi jin bu shi xiao hai zi le. I know even if i am 99 years old, as long as she is alive, i am still a kid in her eyes. Everytime i try, i really try my very very best liao to ctrl my temper, but sometimes i really buai tahan lol.. She will keep complaining to me, telling me this telling me tat, then say i not understanding la, always talk back to her. If i give in to her too much, she go over it... Tell me what should i do?? maybe i shldnt be at home so tat i wouldnt irritate her and she tinks tat i am finding fault. wah piang a.. WO ZHEN DE HEN SHEN QI LOL!!!!! I shld just keep quiet, everyday after work, eat dinner and off to my room.. think tats e best solution ba.. either face it or leave it.. I choose to leave it coz it cannot be solved de... haiz!! Sianz x10

甜蜜蜜早餐

Dont judge it by its appearance,look Simple yet Yami ... Limited edition o, haha! This is Nian Gao with Han Zi, My fav!! Prepared by mami earli morning...

I dont know if i am easily jealous type, I feel tat somehow my ma is Pian Xin de lol, her focus is always on Kor de .. maybe he more smart, somemore "nan de ma".. when comes to his matter, she will reali jing xin jing li de. Maybe i am e rebellious type ba, always talk back to her. But everthing mami say, my kor will juz Orh..Orh ..Orh.. very guai hor, Tats y she teng ta bi jiao duo ba, if my bro got any request and nit my help, she want me to do immediately de lol.. *sad* There is always a gd n bad person de ma, sadly i am e bad de. he is always e "hao hao ren" Haiz! feel very sour now in my heart manz. keke! hao la, i admit i am jealous now lol .wahaha! hope one day i can be someone's focus also. :)

Really like my blog, somethngs i wana share but dunno who to share wit.. thanks to PL for creatin this for me.. :D

~Life is like a book, Each day a new page wit new adventures to experience, lessons to learn and good deeds to replicate.. Hab a colourful day!!! ^^

美丽星期六 ...

Today is gona be a relaxing day for me, hab been quite busy for e past few wks since new yr period.. busy wit work and hosting my aust frenzs, so fast oo, they went back to Melbourne for a week le. Its been a long time since i stay at home during weekend, feel kind of funny.. but i feel tat i need to slow down my pace, occupy wit so many things like work n frenzs, haben had a reali gd time to rest n realise tat i dont hab time for myself + family. Everday after work, juz eat dinner n off to my rm, din talk to them muchi. I hope to make it a point to hab breakfast with mami every weekend and bring her for shopping once a mth. Quite worried for her, she haben been in good health for quite some time.. :( at times i feel lost and bad, i dunno what can i do to help her, e most i can do is.. spend more time with her. (".) and study n work veri hard so tat my parents dont hab to be so xinku,hopefully Papa can retired earli.. n take care of mami. :)

~Happiness is like a butterfly, U run after it, it will keep flying away.. If you stand still it comes and sits on your shoulder..~

03/03/2011~Thursday

Just like any other day, today is a busy day.. Recently hab been feeling very down and moody, dont know is it beocoz i am sick lei. Feel specially lonely.. But thank god, i hab lovely people around me, who show concern by askin how i am and this reali comfort me a lot, which reali warm my heart. These few days hab been a very tiring for me..use double energy to work, details shldnt share it here. Nobody understand. haiz! Everyone hab their own problem, so... i shldnt give ppl problem. I will just take what i can, do what i can,and hab been trying hard to ctrl my emotion, Patients are my focus at work & Family are my focus after work.

Counting down to end of this month, that's e day tat i am free. heard a lot about me.. which i find it very ridiculous and oni those who know me knows what type of person i am. I will ignore those comment. :(( If those "outsider" believe what they hab heard, w/o justifying, there is nothing for me to explain or say. I oni hab one word to say : disappointed. (".) Wo wen xin wu Kui..
When i am nice to ppl, they step on my head, when i become firm, they say i am proud.
I juz wana be myself ... Ignore therapy is e best for me now. God, Pls give me strength to move on...

~Aana, Ni Yi Ding Yao Jia You Oo ... Bu Ke Yi Fang Qi!!!! ~ jia you~jia you~ JIA YOU!~ (",)v

Sunday 27/02/2011

Today Xin Xue Lai Chao.. Think of making some cupcakes. My first attempt on my own w/o mami's help lei..keke! Hmm.. More like especially when you see the people who eat ur cake and e smile n compliment/feedback frm them. Really feel a sense of fulfilment.. will try out more things when i hab e time.. hahaz! must start to learn cookin and baking liao, standby first juz in case i meet my Mr Right.. wahahaha! ^^




My BlueBerry CupCakes... :D

Ready to bake...

Wednesday 23/02/2011 ("v")"v")

Ai Xin Fish Porridge from mami ...

Hab been feeling sick since Tuesday, Down with Fever at night til wednesday. Kor had their photoshot, got to be their driver and help them carry thier things and help future Da Sao Change , so cant afford to feel sick, took panadol and follow them through.. Its a long tiring day but enjoy it.. Yi dian Do bu xin ku oh, and even forgot tat i having fever. Becoz seeing them so xinfu and kai xin during e photoshot. So sweet!! hahaz! Yes, I am envy lol.. Ta Men Yi Ding Hui Hen Xin Fu De!!!! ("v")"v") Kor really Luv her a lotz a lotz.. Hope tat i can find one that i love and he love me even more de.. haiz! Nvm.. good thing is worth waiting..

20/02/2011

Like tis pic much, coz i had a hard time climbing up.. hahaz!

Went to Zoo wit buddies yesterday.. My god! My 2 legs are like jelly liao lo, til today still feel tat way.. we walk e whole day and went to night safari.. tink we reali burn a lot of fats.. hahaz! but overall we good despite of e tiredness..

This morning, Went to bai bai with pa m mi.. best part is i drove them there.. yea! and aftertat drop them off at stat, n drove e car back home.. e problem is a no sense of direction gal like me, spend 5 mins+ to park my car, trying to make it straight in e parking lot, til i give up.. so now my car is wai de.. dont care la, as long as in can le.. keke! One fine day, i will made it de, juz hab to practise more.. best part lei, m "lu chi" lo.. 23/2 got to be kor's driver to drive them around for photo shot.. hahaz! and best is e photgrapher will be in e car also. ALAMAK! pray hard tat day sui sui hor.. :P Yea.. On leave on 23/2 .. Yipee! cant wait for 7 mar to come.. kuai lai ar..

14 Feb 2011,情人节

Happy Valentine Day!! (''v")"v")

This year, my valentine hasn't appear yet.. had to work today so my patients are all my valentine lol.. hahaz! had a mini celebration with my colleague n doc, happy that i am always blessed with nice ppl around. Guess i got to wait longer for my valentine to come ba,hopefully soon ba,lets wait for another year, maybe got susprise from god.. hahaz!
Went home after work.. When Pa reach home and saw me:

Pa: Today is valentine day, U din go out to celebrate ar?
Me: My valentine is both of U loz, thats y i am home ma
Mami: Go find one la, dont be choosey then next yr u can celebrate liao.
Me: Ma, u think so easy get one meh, like go market buy vegetable ar..
Pa: Lai ar, Lai ar.. Who wana date my nu er, come and Q up..
Me: (-.-"') hahaz! (what a cute parents i hab) but they make my day lah..

Haben been blogging for a long time, tink since 2011 ba.. hahaz! oppss.. getting more n more lazy liao.. well.. what hab i been doing all this while, tired of slacking so i went to work temp, but now how i wish i can slack, coz its so tiring.. ai yo! whats my problem loz. Oh, My awesome frenzs frm Aust is here, they will be staying for abt 4 weeks. Woo.. *Jealous* coz we were in melbourne for oni 3 weeks.. *wink wink* so fast loz. We hab been bring them to places like boat quay ar, sentosa, chinatown for dim sum.. (wuu.. food is heaven manz) well.. now then i know being a tour guide can be very tiring but afterall if you see their smiles and everyone is enjoying, its worth while afterall.. and best part is I enjoy myself too.. :D This coming Sat plan is gona be Zoo and Night Safari, its gona be another long day, but am excited abt night safari coz its my first time there too.. *thinking: Am i s'porean or tourist like them.. erm..* wahahaz! :P

Tomorrow is My or I would say Corhort 0109 BIG day ... Our Graduation Day!! Am so excited about it, took leave long ago.. Finally it has come to an end, All the sweat, tears, efforts, hardwork and hopefully No blood ... hahaz! are pay off ... No matter what results we get, I am sure all of us has put in our best effort, and things are not gona end here. Everyone hab their own plans, maybe NS for guys, for those wit good results may want to continue to pursue a higher level of studies (diploma), Or start their career path first and continue to upgrade themselves.. Wish everyone all e best for their future.. Continue to Jia You Oh... (",)v

HAPPY 2011!!!!!!!

My last night of 2010 & first morning of 2011 spend wit them ....

Here comes 2011, wonder what my next step is gona be...Hopefully, My sponsored Hospital approved my appeal to Diploma course. Thats what i hab been looking for 2 years ago, finally!! I made it.. Right Now.. My Plan A : while waiting for poly get a PT job, so that i can survive til my next sponsorship. Plan B: If not approved, I got to work for 2 years and then back to my dip course. I shall wait patiently for their reply.

This 2011 is gona be full of excitment.. Jan : Malaysia trip wit G4, follow by Jun: Kor's wedd, Aug: Trip wit Sec frenzs to celebrate our 14 years & 20 years of friendship.. Last but not least : End of year trip to Japan, mine & Jie's Dream... Hopefully dreams fulfill tis year... :D