我终于可以松一口气了

Cooking Time .. Believe ma? Cooked By Aana Hor! hahaz..

Today is my last day there, finally this day hab come.. To tell the truth, i never tink tat work is tough, to me.. relationship wit co worker very impt. If you can work well together and help one another, work can be easily done. U dont hab to work like mad. Never had gd life everytime i work there, til now i still dun understand.. Y i still jump into tat "HOLE" where i aldy knw tat its there.. haiz! this is wat ppl call.. "Zi Tao Ku Chi".. After i walk out, i really can feel tat the air i breath is so fresh lol, feel so relief and happy. Can you imagine, i am so stress up til i din sleep well and hab enuff sleep everyday. Today reach home, slept e whole noon. Feel so muchi better. Thanks boy for e chat last night, not muchi words, but really feel comforting, Is really nice to hab someone wit me when I m down. :) Dont hab to talk about e topic but juz casual chat is enuff.. hee..hee..! Wee~ My Genting trip is coming, setting off on Sunday morning til Tues.. As i say, short trip can be relaxing and fun too, its a getaway.. (",)v

我很努力的想要笑..可是..

No Matter how hard i try.. I juz cant smile, maybe too many things happen le ba, during work.. I am really very tired, i felt tat i hab to use all my full energy.. Y am i doing this to myself? I keep forcing myself and keep telling myself to be strong, i cant fall so easily.. I reali feel like having a hug from someone, all i need is one sentence "I will be here anytime when u need me" I work so hard i also dont knw for wat? am i happy with wat i am doing? Y cant i be notice and treasure? I feel as if i am suffering alone lei.. no one care n bother my dead or alive.. Whenever there is problem or difficulty i hab to fight very very hard to protect myself .. :(( God ar!! Are you trying to make me grow stronger ... I hab times when i am weak, and need a rest.. Pls!! I dont wana fight alone. I am not sure how she think of me, maybe proud and selfish to her. Does she know tat i hab to clean her backside each time she make a mistake and i got to face her bloody shit face everytime when i try to correct her. God, Can i ask for strength? Can u give me more strength to hang on til this friday.. then i will be set free.. I will am never gona step in there again.

Recently, Kor also got problem.. its due to his car accident tat happen 3 years ago .. this incident has happen 800 years ago lol, who will actually remember this, moreover ... we hab even change a new car le, this stupid party come and find trouble again, look for lawyer want to find kor's fault. Rich ppl are not all but mostly bo liao de lol.. I reali hate rich ppl.. maybe both of us cant merge into each other's life ba..
What's so big deal abt having a lot of $$$ ... some things cant be bought by $$ de.. Can U buy love? Can you buy ur family? can you buy health? Can you buy relationship? Can you buy Care? Can you buy Friendship? Can you buy Time? Can you buy relationship? Can you buy HAPPINESS? If you tell me, yes i can buy any of e above mention wit $$... I dont mind working very very hard juz to get this.. but no!! w/o love, care or friends n family around u,even if u hab lotz $$,its is juz like a pieces of paper... (".)

No bluez on monday...

Today very happy lei, no specific reason .. juz happy lo, lucky no bluez today. Guess wat i was thinking of going for a holidays before my poly starts, came true le.. though juz a short trip, but its a good getaway, i only got $$ go genting lay, hahaz! ya will be going end of march.. Yahoo!! My doc today very funny lo, he ask me to buy lunch lay, then i ask him for e last time, he say nvm he dont want. then after lunch i ask him, doc u din eat ar? he was like, becoz u din buy for me lo, hahaz! then he keep repeating lei, make me so guilty.. end up he go opp buy bread eat.. keke! poor thing ..
Piang this few days so busy with e poly enrolment thing, til i gong gong liao. so many things to do, die ar! haben take passport photo yet, Not much time liao, this fri is e submittion,my god! so rush lay, somemore working. No time to do all this loose things.. stress manz! Lucky today after rush to go create my singpass.. piangz.. oni takes abt 2 mins for e fellow to create for me lo, make me go all e way down to SK.. y cant we do ourselves online. "shang now jin ar" Okii, now super stoned liao..

Juz end my day ...

Veri tired lei, ai yo.. y my energy always used up so fast de? haha.. But had a great day, Went vivo with ling and andrew.. Then we went to watch movie, lucky made e right choice, little red riding hood is a nice movie manz. Hmm.. Can say disgusting (oni some parts), touching + romans, exciting also.. hahaz! juz Go watch it, its worth it.. Actually wana watch BIG MAMA de, tot e show will be funny but ling dont like. nvm, she is e princess ma.. then aftertat we went for dinner and some shopping.. a simple meet up but we had a good time nice chat.. (^v^) Tmr's plan is gona be a bit boring ... hahaz! Time to rest, will be home e whole day.. :D This week is gona be a boring week, both my fav docs on leave.. (-.-"') hahaz!

Busy But Happy Satursday

Wake up early morning went for Medical Check up @ SATA. Yes, finally receive e enrolment package from NYP yesterday liao. Actually wana go check up monday de, but din wana take leave, no becoz i hardworking la, becoz if i dont work, is no pay leave lay. Going to spend a lot of $$ lo for poly, buy books, uniform, and all e blah blah things.. so can save, save can work, work.. Today rec a sweet sms frm him, keke! finally ... :D ok, tat's random...

Later going to meet ling to celebrate her bday with her, bought her present liao, but tinkin wana buy bday cake ma, whats a bday w/o a cake hor? duno lay, maybe i too used to having it every yr le ... my family will usually buy a cake for me on my bday, not say very grand or wat lo, juz to show tat they rem my bday.. tats wat i feel. maybe will go get a small de for her ba. :D

came across this quote frm a frenz's status, tot its meaningful so share it here:

~ Love Cannot always be measured by how long you waited. Its about how well you understand why you are waiting ~

Its my Fav Day ...

TGIF.. Yahoo! finally i manage to survive til today, nearly half my life gone. Had a super doper bad week. Well, Lets not talk about and tink about it liao. ITS OVER ! let it be past tense. Manage to clear what i should clear today. God is still kind to me de. Whole week hab been super tired and always end late after work. All drain out, everyday when i come home, juz dont feel like doing anything and talk, coz i talk enuff for e day liao. til my lip so dry lo, no joke oh.. Just shut myself in my room after dinner and EMO... hahaz! Not la, I like singing, so juz go into Youtube to look at some music video or watch ou xiang ju lol. Momo rite? ya.. i am zai nu ma, hahaz! This is e oni time i can hab time for myself. So i am enjoying it. Day 3 liao, still no action, waited til i feel tat no point liao. . if he really put me in his heart, things shouldnt be like tis. Everyday we juz msg gd morning and gd night tats it, i feel a bit bored liao. I tink he also. hoping tat he will do something but he didnt. Maybe its still not time yet to meet e right one. Or i should give up liao, stop hoping for anything so tat i wouldn hab disappointment. Just focus on what i should be doing now. Think tats e best way ba... ^^

No Words can describe how i feel now....

What sh*t hab i got myself into? I juz wana work to kill time and earn some pocket $$.. seriously i dont tink i deserve this lol, I really cant take it liao, 4 yrs ago is like tat.. after 4 yrs i rejoin as temp staffs is still e same lol.. Y do i hab to face all e mistake or negligence things tat e previous staff hab overlook? Y do i hab to be responsible for all e explaination and scolding frm e patients? best part i dont know what is going on and happening.. but i hab to ans all these. What is this manz?! somemore nobody wana take responsible to all these.. I really had enough lo.. Being in e clinic, which i rarely been there before and it has been 4 yrs ago. I got to be responsible to teach/guide new staffs, other than routine work, got to overlook everything in e clinic, ordering stocks, results and many many.. I am really tired lay.. I so xinku train one staff, after she know everythin or most of e operation in e clinic le, end up take her away to another plc. Get another new gal, this time best.. One who claim she got experience, things i tot her she cannot rem than claim tat i din teach her, talk back somemore. tats y i predict i sure hab a bit problem teachin ppl who are senior de. Ask me things tat i cant ans, when i say i dont know she give me a face. HELLO! am i suppose to know everything, i am juz a temp staff lei. Wah kaoz a!!

Today lol, another blue black case, piang a! MY PROBLEM again? not going into details abt tis. My doc is good la, at least listen to me, was telling her abt this fellow problem. she also find me ke lian lo, why shld i be facing all this. At least e words tat she say make me feel comforting lo, someone understand my feeling. I was like talking very loudly in e clinic, tats always my problem lo, I tend to talk loudly when i am angry or excited.. dont know y, then my dr will remind me,ask me to Shhh...

At least feel beta after i write out all this feeling....

How i wish :

When i am tired , I hab a shoulder to lean on ...
When i am happy, I hab someone to share wit ...
When i am sad/down, i hab a hug/ ear to listen...
when i am angry, i hab someone to cheer me up ....
when i hab problem, I hab someone to talk to ...

My dear, where are u? U rec my signal ma tat i am missing U, quick come to me... :((

Black Tuesday ...

Tot today locum doc (covering doc), so will be a bit slack after so muchi work yesterday.. Beside patients still hab to receive and unpack e stocks.. So tiring manz, haben recover from yesterday tiredness.. Today also busy, hai shi busy.. Wo de ma ya.. Earli morning beisdes my norm breakfast (breads + coffee), still got a big bomb lo, first time work with this doc, so dunno his pattern. He come into e clinic like just eaten a big BOMB, his face so black like charcoal.. haha! funniest thing is he told me he got lost in MRT stat, dunno which exit to come out from.. Mahahah! ( of coz i not so bad Laugh out loud la, but in my heart laughing oni) oops! :P think of it still very funny lol, but later part of e day he is better le, tats y i always say dont judge a person by its cover becoz you haben get to know e person ma.. he/ she may not be as bad as u think.. BUT wait... even if she looks pretty and nice initiately may not be tat nice oh.. character also can be sucks de. ( its true facts)

YA, receive a super doper sweet sms tat every girl or i would say i wish to receive de.. This sweet frenz of mine, by the way is a guy .. He send this whole long list of sms, it doesnt matter but wat matter is e contents.. It really touches my heart, He is going to NS soon, but he is worrying for e gal tat he likes, juz like a guardian angel.. He is askin a favor frm me n e others, to look after this gal, and in e sms it wrote all about this gal character and behavior.. which i find it very touching.. how i wish will hab a guy who knows me well, wat i like, dont like, when i am tired what i would do/behave, when i am sad..... WAH!! very Xi Xin Lei.. All he want is to protect this girl and want her to be happy.. Really hope that he can win her heart lol.. Envy envy envy lei.. Orrrrr!!! How i wish to be that xing fu de nu hai ... ^^


~If its a dream, then I'd rather not to wake up anymore. For it is e only way i can be with you, with no doubt, no fear in my heart but a trust that someday you will be mine and a lifetime together. JusT U ("and") Me ~

Low -->High Spirit ..

Yipee yaya yipee yipee ya~yipee yaya yipee yipee ya~ yipee yaya yipee yipee yaya~ yipee yipee yaya yipee yipee ya~

Morning was really a blue for me, yea.. i know its Monday!!! tell me abt it manz. Treat myself a cup of upsize coffee frm WANG.. to brighten up my day.. ahahaha! Wellz.. really no mood lo, like dragging myself to work, but no choice for e seek of $$.. not fully la, at least comforting things is I am working wit wonderful perm docs, others put aside dont say la.. Ppl always say "BAI REN CHENG JIN" thats wat i am doing now, moreover i am just a temp staff no authority juz do my job can liao, other things dont care y spoil my mood becoz of silly issue.. Waiting for End of Mar to come.. and ..........

New chapter of life begin... (not marriage life though)haha! Yeah! e great GREAT news is I am accepted by NYP le.. Yahoo... though pa say cfm can get in de coz we hab COM, but my heart still feel unassure til e final acceptance result come out... keke! Gona study very very hard, its not gona be easy but will do my very best. Heard a lotz of comments given from frenzs around me, some encourage, some ask me to think through.. I am not sure how this route is going to be, but i wana try, this is what i always want. 10 years of my dream.. thinking back, how i climb up one step at a time, i am not and would NEVER give up. I choose to be a Nurse.. I once heard my ADON share this : How good a nurse is not judge by how good ur result is, or how well you do in ur studies or skills.. Its how you treat the patients as though u are taking care of ur close one. Which really leave a great inpact in my heart. Which is very true, I cant say tat i am the good one, but i want to work forward to be the one.. Thats e goal in life. Thank god for giving me this chance. (",)v

Reali disappointed and upset ...

I really dont know what should i do, I shouldnt say all e time, but most of e time.. Mami always say I am rude to her + i throw temper at her, which i find tat no lol.. sorriee to say tat at times she reali very fan lei, like to ask me to do things i dont like,ctrl me ... wo yi jin bu shi xiao hai zi le. I know even if i am 99 years old, as long as she is alive, i am still a kid in her eyes. Everytime i try, i really try my very very best liao to ctrl my temper, but sometimes i really buai tahan lol.. She will keep complaining to me, telling me this telling me tat, then say i not understanding la, always talk back to her. If i give in to her too much, she go over it... Tell me what should i do?? maybe i shldnt be at home so tat i wouldnt irritate her and she tinks tat i am finding fault. wah piang a.. WO ZHEN DE HEN SHEN QI LOL!!!!! I shld just keep quiet, everyday after work, eat dinner and off to my room.. think tats e best solution ba.. either face it or leave it.. I choose to leave it coz it cannot be solved de... haiz!! Sianz x10

甜蜜蜜早餐

Dont judge it by its appearance,look Simple yet Yami ... Limited edition o, haha! This is Nian Gao with Han Zi, My fav!! Prepared by mami earli morning...

I dont know if i am easily jealous type, I feel tat somehow my ma is Pian Xin de lol, her focus is always on Kor de .. maybe he more smart, somemore "nan de ma".. when comes to his matter, she will reali jing xin jing li de. Maybe i am e rebellious type ba, always talk back to her. But everthing mami say, my kor will juz Orh..Orh ..Orh.. very guai hor, Tats y she teng ta bi jiao duo ba, if my bro got any request and nit my help, she want me to do immediately de lol.. *sad* There is always a gd n bad person de ma, sadly i am e bad de. he is always e "hao hao ren" Haiz! feel very sour now in my heart manz. keke! hao la, i admit i am jealous now lol .wahaha! hope one day i can be someone's focus also. :)

Really like my blog, somethngs i wana share but dunno who to share wit.. thanks to PL for creatin this for me.. :D

~Life is like a book, Each day a new page wit new adventures to experience, lessons to learn and good deeds to replicate.. Hab a colourful day!!! ^^

美丽星期六 ...

Today is gona be a relaxing day for me, hab been quite busy for e past few wks since new yr period.. busy wit work and hosting my aust frenzs, so fast oo, they went back to Melbourne for a week le. Its been a long time since i stay at home during weekend, feel kind of funny.. but i feel tat i need to slow down my pace, occupy wit so many things like work n frenzs, haben had a reali gd time to rest n realise tat i dont hab time for myself + family. Everday after work, juz eat dinner n off to my rm, din talk to them muchi. I hope to make it a point to hab breakfast with mami every weekend and bring her for shopping once a mth. Quite worried for her, she haben been in good health for quite some time.. :( at times i feel lost and bad, i dunno what can i do to help her, e most i can do is.. spend more time with her. (".) and study n work veri hard so tat my parents dont hab to be so xinku,hopefully Papa can retired earli.. n take care of mami. :)

~Happiness is like a butterfly, U run after it, it will keep flying away.. If you stand still it comes and sits on your shoulder..~

03/03/2011~Thursday

Just like any other day, today is a busy day.. Recently hab been feeling very down and moody, dont know is it beocoz i am sick lei. Feel specially lonely.. But thank god, i hab lovely people around me, who show concern by askin how i am and this reali comfort me a lot, which reali warm my heart. These few days hab been a very tiring for me..use double energy to work, details shldnt share it here. Nobody understand. haiz! Everyone hab their own problem, so... i shldnt give ppl problem. I will just take what i can, do what i can,and hab been trying hard to ctrl my emotion, Patients are my focus at work & Family are my focus after work.

Counting down to end of this month, that's e day tat i am free. heard a lot about me.. which i find it very ridiculous and oni those who know me knows what type of person i am. I will ignore those comment. :(( If those "outsider" believe what they hab heard, w/o justifying, there is nothing for me to explain or say. I oni hab one word to say : disappointed. (".) Wo wen xin wu Kui..
When i am nice to ppl, they step on my head, when i become firm, they say i am proud.
I juz wana be myself ... Ignore therapy is e best for me now. God, Pls give me strength to move on...

~Aana, Ni Yi Ding Yao Jia You Oo ... Bu Ke Yi Fang Qi!!!! ~ jia you~jia you~ JIA YOU!~ (",)v