Ready for 2011 ???

Ho..Ho..Ho.. We hab just send santa home, and soon we are gona say Bye to 2010 and Hello 2011 ... How hab 2010 been for U? Is it good or bad? Recently, i was flipping through my diary, to my susprise, I found a page which i wrote "Resolution for 2010", I even forgot tat i hab set it, and while i was going through the list, I found tat most of the things that i set, i accomplish it. The feeling was really great! I believe tat God has a plan for everyone, If this year is a good year for you, continue to pray for a better one next year, If its not.. Dont feel dishearted, 2011 is gona be a new and good start for you. Dont look at the past, otherwise you cant see the future. Most impt is Never Lose Faith In Whatever U Do.. Yao Jia You Oo..!!! Confidence is half way to success.. :D


Our simple yet meaningful christmas celebration ...













Christmas Dinner @ Carousel ... :D

Our Gift Exchange ...

My Christmas gifts...

This christmas hab you count ur blessings? Apart from how wealthy u are, how high ur rank is in ur workplace or anywhere, BUT the one who walks along with you in ur life.... U will feel that ur reward will be greater than what you think you hab ... Magic word "Cherish"
Best Wishes to All ...& 2011 will definately be a better year for U guys.. Cheers!

They are part of my wealthSsss ... (",)V

My FAMILY (Father And Mother I Love You)

My cousin + sista + best frenz ... :D

We share e same goal and work hard together for 2 years...

We were tog since ITE 2001 til now.... Besties for 10 years ...

We are together since Primary and Secondary School time...

FINALE

O lay lay O lala... Today.. Yes Today!!! 2 yrs of hard work, sweat, tears, energy, sleepless and stressful night during exam, effort, blood (maybe) FINISH LE.. I finally finish the race in one piece.. hahaz! I would say its not easy to come to this far and til the end. 10 years of dream, I finally made it. From a person who dont even know what is bedpan til now ready to be an enrolled nurse. WAH SAY!

I feel that i have grow a lot during this 2 years of studies in ITE, the teachers really put in so muchi effort to mould us to become a gd nurse. Without them, there wouldnt be us. :) ITs 2 yrs hab been a fruitful years for me, I nvr tried so hard to get gd results, setting goals in my life. During this 2 years, i got opportunities to go for YEP to do volunteer work, and GEP Australia trip for exchange programme. I really thank god for giving me what i want in life. My next goal is to go for diploma next yr, hopefully i got it as well. Woohoo! After hard work, its time to enjoy before we move on to our next chapter of life.

The Long waited day ...

This day hab finally come... 04/12/2010. After putting in so muchi sweat, blood, and time. Haben been sleeping well for e past few days, worrying this worrying that, Pre test symptom. Practising like hell forthe past 2 days, after mornin shift and then go for practise til 10+pm, next day morning shift and go practise again. Everything finally pay off ... YES! I made it manz.. really wana thank all the instructors who taught me, being patient wit me and not forgetting their encouragement. All the credits goes to them.

Since yesterday i was praying for good weather, hoping that everything will be smooth, but... God really put me on trial loz, while i was doing my warm up.. the sky starts to turn dark and starts to drizzle. I was praying tat the weather will not get worse and hopefully will be gd again. BUT... juz as i was about to start my driving test. It starts to rain and it gets heavier and heavier.. OH MY!!! Thats the thing i fear most, coz vision will be poor when the rain gets heavier and heavier, i try to keep calm and really focus as much as i can, i have to look relax also, to prove to the tester i am confidence. Alamak! 2nd thing is i hab difficulty shifting the gears, (by the way, i am taking manual car) Wah piang a..the whole process i was really struggling and having cold sweat loz. Lucky thing god is still kind to me, to have a nice tester, not a fierce looking one that freak me out.

After i end my test, i can finally breath normally, when we get out of the car, the tester turn and ask me, "How you find your driving?" very bad is it?? After i hear that, i was like "Oh shit manz! thats it! But i reply him, i find it Ok not that bad, i was oni nervous. Then he nod his head, and continue walking to the tester room. I was asked to wait outside. I waited for some time and a lady who was after me got her result outside the rm and her tester told her that she passed her test. I was happy for her too, becoz tis was her 2nd atempt. Not long after, my tester came and ask me to go into the rm, In my heart, was like... OH NO!!! then he told me that i got to improve on my parking, and last question he ask me again, So do you think you pass? I was like.... Sir, I fail is it? Then he say: "No, U passed ur test".. The fear has finally gone and i keep thanking the tester. That was what i went through the whole morning.

1/12/2010 (Wednesday)

Morning shift today, Woohoo! Apart from the struggling and dragging myslf out of the bed early in the morning to prepare myself for work. Afterall i still love my morning shifts. Yippee! Time pass super doper fast manz. Just blinking n wink wink.. its break time, another blink blink and wink wink.. Time to end shift.. hahaz!

Something saddening happen today which i dont wish to face. Everyday, when i step into the ward, I will pray hard that this patient is still around, but today, when i step in and found tat my patient passed away, i cant help feeling sad and in my heart i feel like crying, i keep controlling my emotion, trying to treat it normally. But i keep thinking about my grandma, 2 yrs ago she passed away due to cancer too, til now, I still cant get over with it, my mind keep flashing those days when she is very sick til her very last breath. (T.T)

When i walk pass the family members, I dont even dare to look at them, but i reali can feel the pain of losing their love ones. I hope as days or years goes by in my nursing line, I will learn to be stronger and accept things with a open heart.

Tuesday 30/11/2010

Just came home from noon shift, super tired + sleepy. But just dont feel like sleeping so early. Becoz after i wake up will be working again. YAP! Morning shift... Is like very funny loz, my patients are very cute, some will ask me when they see me in the morning.. Eh, Missy ah.. U din go home since yesterday ar.. I will always laugh and tell them, yes i did, i just came this morning. Then the patient will Orh... hahaz! How i wish this attachment to end soon. counting down day by day.. hoping to receive good news. Good luck to me or rather us.
Wahahaha.. Guess what? Its Pay Day..

Beautiful Monday

Juz came home after my shift, but starting to feel sicky, oh god! tink becoz my house hab too strong virus, hope i can fight against it,aldy taken meds n gona sleep early tonight. I dont wish to do any replacement, though i love this posting. hahaz!

Lets talk abt My first posting to K.K hospital, Its a long waiting posting since my yr 1, finally here i am.. First day in this ward, Yes as usual one blur sotong, dont know wat is going on, how everything works. But not too bad, seeing childrens reali make my day, but not for e childrens who see us in uniform.. hahaz! coz they will be tinking "oh no, medication, injections, etc". I learn some things today, dealing with kids is not easy, we reali nit to hab a lot of patience, a lot of coaxing, and be frenz with them. Which jialing and I manage to do it..hahaz! At first, this little kid is so scared of us, everytime she see us, she will start to cry. But slowly we try to talk n play with her, she starts to open up. we can see that her fear in us, slowly fade off. One of e minor achievement that we hab done. I juz love to work at Paediatric ward.. Generally, everything went well, nurses are helpful n friendly.. Gona enjoy my whole posting here :D

Super Sunday

Have been back from Australia for 3 weeks.. still haben get over with it. There is oni ONE word to describe Melbourne "AWESOME".. love everything there, even hab plans to go back there to work in near future.. hahaz! hope it will come true.

Today's plan is to meet Shirley, Teck Hwee and most impt Baobei Shyanne.. at first, i got so worried abt e weather manz, thank goodness... we manage to meet up in e end despite of e rainy weather... Yipee! we had a good time together.. Finally, Baby shyanne din sleep when we meet. hee..hee.. :D look forward to our next meeting ..

Counting Down 2 more days ...

Oh.. Happy Childrens'Day! Cant even remember when was the last time i celebrate childrens' day.. hahaz!

Went to CNCC to get our cert and after which we head back to school to get e things and documents settled. 4 of us are getting more and more excited about it manz. Wonder our buddies share e same excitment as we are having now. hahaz! Oh, today then i realised that our flight is @ 2335. Will be reaching airport @ 9pm.

Recently, my family did a lot for me.. My ma was so worried that my health is weak, she make a lot of herbal tea for me, my pa went all e way to chinatown to change $$ for me, as he heard from his frenz that chinatown exchange rate is higher, juz by a few $$ he travel all e way down after a long tiring work. I was really touched. Not forgetting tat my brother went with me to get a laptop and bought a laptop cover for me, he say it would be easy for me to bring to Melbourne. At times, i feels that i am nelgected by my family members, but actually i am not. I am going to miss my family a lot when i am at melbourne. I realise that "Happiness can be very simple", the little care n actions, make me feel so warm in my heart. :)

Finally, all e packing is almost done. Going to spend more time with my family these 2 days. Not as if i am going for 3 months or 3 years but i wana treasure every moments with them. :D Hopefully, i will bring them proud.

Back again

My blog has been neglected for a long time since Aug. Now its time to revive it. hahaz! Remember e last time i wrote i was applying for Aust exchange program, I made it.. oh no.. i shld say WE made it, Feeroz, Khai, Esther + myself. We will be going together, so so so happy about it. For the past 2 weeks, we hab been busy preparing e things and of coz our mood, cant wait to go manz.

In e beginning, we were so afraid tat we cant go due to some reasons, but all thanks to Mrs Tang n Mrs Tan, they really fight for us. This friday, we will be going down to collect our certificate + meet up with Mrs Tan again before we set off on 3rd Oct (Sun) @ 2345hrs. Count down with us, its only 4 days away, its time to start packing our mood n bags aldy. If you are interested to find out how we are doing there,Come here for more updates ... :)

Home alone ...

Wouuu.. my blog is like dead for a long time. Now its time to revive it. Thanks to YOG, we hab a 2 weeks vocation manz. But 2 wks seem short for me, its gona be a busy holidays, doing project, preparing for Aust Exchange Programme interview, and going for driving lesson.

I went to apply for the Aust Exchange Programme, juz submitted the report and waiting to be call for e interview. Although i always tell myself n others, take it easy "If i can go, i will go" but deep in my heart, I really hope to be choosen and it is definately a rare and precious time. I hab to be one of the strongest one to be able to make it there. :) most impt of all to prepare myself to do my very best to prove my ability. Let natural take place ba. :D

School Reopen loo...

2 weeks has gone since school reopen and guess wat? I feel that my brain is empty, still now i hab yet to learn anything. kinda worry manz. This semester is a critical one, we cant afford to drop or slack. Maybe we are too used to Powerpoint teaching and copying notes for e past one yr+. We are stil not able to adopt to this teacher teaching, she prefer us to do discussion n research among our grp. In tat case, we must well do SDL, Y? go to school. Maybe she has her reason to do it, she wana train us "Poly Style". Haiz!! How huh? If this goes on, we got to do SDL loz. Somemore She give us homework to do over e wkend loz, and i hab no clue how to do it manz. GOD!!! cant access to e-tutor somemore. :((

Feast Before School Starts ...

After hard work during attachment and before MORE stress comes when school reopen, we had a mini feast.. hahaz! Had a great time eating today, after a steamboat we had "high tea" @ bakerinz.. catching up with one another.

Wow.. finally we left with one more semester to go.. JIA YOU all e way, cant wait to go back to school to finish the course and begin my working life. This semester will be a tiring one for me, got to study and go for driving lessons at the same time,hopefully i can manage my time well. :)

Finally I start to move on..

Rise and Shine! Its a special day, Today is my first drivng lesson. So damn nervous sia, thank god i got a good instructor, keep reminding me to calm dwn. Finally got a hang of how is it like driving. the feeling was "SCARY". No doubt there is a lot to learn for e first lesson, the instructor told me that driving is not about "Memorising" the steps, is more of Familiarizing and getting use to it. Learn a lot today. I finally made e first step after passing my final theory half a year ago. hee..hee.. Cant wait for my next lesson. Look forward to see my progress and moving towards to get a driving license. This will be one of my goal for this year.

World Blood Donor Day 12/06/2010

Last Day of Posting

9 weeks of training has come to an end today, FINALLY! This attachment has been a fruitful one for me, learn a lot of things from e sisters and ward staffs. Thank god for all e nice selfless nurses who take e effort to teach and guide us despite of their busy work schdule.

The last 2 weeks posting at IMH is a great experience, i always wanted to know how is it like working there, the first day i step into the place, the first feeling was fearful. It took me 2 days to get used to e environment,but i was still not very comfortable, in my heart i was praying for the posting to end faster, but after 1 week of posting, getting to know e patients behaviour and begin to create a bond wit them by talking to them, playing with them. Afterall e experience is not tat bad. I enjoy most is when they smile at u when u try to make them smile.

Today is e last day in e ward le, kind of gota miss them, i really enjoy this "SPECIAL" posting. I would want to go back to work as a staff one of this days. :)

Y?Y?Y?

Recently a lot of things happen? Unexpectedly..Unbelievable.. Is it a bad year? I feel so lost, so tired, so stress, emotionally and physically restless.. i cant tink properly. Everyday running around, busy here busy there.. din sleep well and even not enuff sleep. Y? Y one thing after another? God.. Please be with us through tis time, we nit ur blessing..

Reali hope tat everything will be fine soon and back to normal.. i dont know I or i shld say how much more energy we hab le. hope e dark time will be over soon.

Reflection ...

2 weeks of attachment has gone, what hab i learnt beside dojng e skills and helping the ADL of e patients. On friday, Its a bluez day for me. Got a bomb frm mdm Lee, She post a question to me, actually not juz myself but all my others frenzs, " How muchi you know ur patients?" I was stun, other than telling her their dignosis and those hrly para thingz, tats all i can tell her.. I dont know e management and rationale behind the care. At tat time, I feel so ... reali lost of words at tat time. I dont knw how to describe the feelings. perviously Mr de leon ask me a question, "How can i be different frm the rest to get a "A".. Now I know where i go wrong, and things i shld take note. I hab always overlook the proper care for the patient, We are suppose to bring back to gd health and not juz oni taking care of their ADL. I shld stop staying at year 1, Frm now on, I must read more and be a Thinking Nurse.
Reali thank her for that manz, her words reali struck my heart.. Time to wake up and improve myself...

*Diligence is e onli shortout to success"

Bro's graduation Day

Yesterday After his graduation ceremony, We went to shopping for some furniture,as Kor say his cupboard is old and in bad condition. He will be using mine first at the meantime. Wow! I got a new cupboard and a new study table for myself @ Ikea. Wuu huu! After shopping, went for dinner before we headed home.

Today is a busy day, Yap.. Housekeeping!! A lot of packing, throwing, dismentling and moving job.. My ma say magiam moving house.. hahaz! My bro was saying, everything is new in my room now except for my bed.. hee..hee.. Now my room look so big, my clothes and things are all packed in the bags.. Feel as though i juz moved into a new room. So excited waiting for my new cupboard to arrive on tuesday. :))

count dwn to 8 weeks ....

Today is friday which means 1 week of attachment is gone. Dont know why, i juz dont like attachment, very xinku loz... I prefer to go school wor, though long hours but e time pass very fast lay, then y in hospital so slow lay. Haiz!
Lucky today is a busy day, time pass a bit faster.. I juz upload my YEPtrip video on FB, this is the 2nd time i create e video le loz, e first time is gone becoz my bro format e whole system software.. I am like OMG! what to do? things that happen cannot be undone ma, so got to accept it loz, re-do e whole thing in 3 days, so for e past 3 days after my noon shift i will do til 1-2am.. Its worth it lah, becoz i wana keep tis memories.. I really miss my team a lot a lotz.

Really glad and lucky tat i went for it. Its something tat is precious to me, I went to the trip with one frenz and when i am back from e trip, i bring back 26 friends.. Frm a stranger til we are so close now, the bond tat we hab. really hope tat this friendship will not end at this moment, but we will meet up often to catcha with each other..

Really Miss the 14 days when we are together...Sleep, eat, smell, laugh,cry, play, watch tv, girl talk, gossip, shout,sing, joke, crazy .......

好久沒有大哭一场了

Do you remember when is the last time u cried? Is it becoz you lost someone close to you, or is it someone who reali touched ur heart, there are many reasons y one person cry, "Crying" is one of the way ppl express their emotions or they release themselves ...

Tomorrow I am or rather we are going to fly off to vietnam, I tot I wouldnt be missing home.. But i did and started to miss home aldy. This is e first time i m gona leave home for so long, I am taking this trip as a "Independent training" for myself. I hope i will gain more than expected, and grow up of coz not physically but mentally. What is life w/o my mummy by my side? I am too pampered at home. Its time i step out of my comfort zone, learn to do everything by myself.

It reali sadden me, when i come to tink of wat hab i done for my mum? sometimes, its juz a small request from her.. I cant even fufill it. There is a few times she ask me to bring her out for a meal, I will say I am broke or wait til when i hab free time. BUT when will tis FREE TIME really come. She will add on and say Nvm, all i hab to de is to bring me out, and she will pay for the meal tat we eat. I felt so ashamed. Sometimes its not the matter of $$, is the matter of the HEART. Each time i rejected her, the disappointed face that she give me make me feel so bad and guilty. She has worked so muchi and hard for the family, what hab we give her in return? What she want is juz my accompany.

Frm now on, I told myself tat i wana make changes in my life. These are the goals i set for myself:
1. Control my temper
2. Be more patient
3. Bring my mama out at least once a month
4. spend more time wit family/frenzs (balance)
5. Be positive +++
6. give more than expected
7. SMILE more
8. Focus on one thing at a time
9. Pass my Practical Driving Test
10. Do well in my Nursing and get into Polytechnic


2010 is gona be a Fruitful Year... Aana Jia You!! Gambatae ... (",)V

Not just another day ...

No doubt it has been a tiring week for each of us, reporting to school everyday to do e packing and preparation work before we set off to vietnam. Am happy that i am involved and so are my family. Reali glad tat my family members are actually very supportive, my mum went all e way to pack some of her clothes for donation, she even wanted to donate some $$, My Pa plan to drive me to e airport on Sunday early morning like 4+am as its difficult to get a cab at tat time, and they dont want me to spend $$ to call cab. They even ask me not to buy any souvinoir back for them becoz i am going for volunteer trip. Reali feel touched and encouraging loz.. :D

Well.. its getting nearer and nearer to our YEP trip, Wow.. I am getting more and more excited man, this is the first mission trip tat i am going to.. wonder hows everything is gona be like. Hab been overseas for quite a nos of time, but this trip is gona be a special one. Seriously, I dont know how muchi i can do for them.. but i will try my very best to do what i can. I am sure those friends who are going with me,share this feeling. Lets hab Fun together and make this 14 days an enjoyable one for all of us including them. It will be a great experience .. :)

We're One ...

12/03/2010

ITs Friday... But its a blue-black friday for me. Juz went for my 3 super doper jab : H1N1, Flu + Tetnus jab.. Cool rite? best part, all at one go loz.. Now my right hand is like damn pain loz. Dont dare to move too muchi, coz tats e hand tat suffer 2 jab together. One thing I find super funny loz.. e doc is trying to distract me by talking to me, then i was like telling e doc can you dont talk to me?! I cant concentrate wat u are talking.. hahaz! then he say Y u scared of injection ar? then i was like.. YA! He say "Orh.. i was trying to distract u ma by talking to u, actually i also scared of injection de. Then i laugh.. hahaha!

Wah..before tat it was reali a long wait loz, too almost e whole noon to wait for e jab. Youliang so cute loz, he say he take aldy immediately whole hand numb + shivering.. make us all scared. Dont know y my hand so pain now lei, initiately.. i was still telling esther not pain de lei, no feel aldy.. but after i come back home, my mama say put hot water on cotton bud then tap on e injection site then e med will spread out.. tmr not pain le.. Y now so PAIN ne??!!!
I still ask my ma "can bath ma?" haha! she say "can la.." then i ask her " then y baby after taking injection cannot bath huh" then she laugh n say " U baby meh... can lah" ahahaha! :P


Tmr is gona be a busy day wor.. Got to go back school for Our yep trip briefing ... then aftertat got class bbq.. Yeah!!!! but aftertat i got family dinner leh, tinking how lay. Ai yoh! Y family dinner always lang-ga with my plan de ... alamak! dont knw how lei..

Exam Fever is now On ....

Time flies as we always say.. *blink blink* 3 month has gone, damn fast loz. Tmr is exam le, guess everyone is having sympathetic reaction now. hahaz! Dont know y? hab been taking so mani countless of exam le, but still we feel gan jiong each time when exam comes. wellz, maybe thats one of our body reaction ba.

First paper will start off with PCA tmr, after which tues will be bio paper and Woo huu.. will be holidays le.. but right now, my mind is full of bio loz, study PCA halfway suddenly i will think of wat is hormones? Wat is CSF? hahaz! Oh..Oh..wat has it got to do with PCA... :P So mani things to study and remember, hope tomorrow my temporal lobe will work well manzz. Ai yoz a...cant afford to hab a B lei. all effort will be in the "long gang" loz, very pressurized man. Tink tonight will be a sleepless night for me, i aldy prepare myself for that manz. Hope tat everything goes smoothly tmr..

"Success will find a way, Failure will find an excuse" Jia You People!!! Tmr is the day for you to perform after 3 mths of hard work... Give it a best shot!! :D

Bad Experience

I always hab this phobia to take cab, not sure if its psychological or reali physiological? Everytime i take cab, I will feel sick.. Nausea.. Tats wat i hate man! N part of e reason y i dont like to take cab. Dont know if its a sickness or illness.. then when i take bus, i cant take more than 1 hr.. if not...Yes! Bus sick, When i take plane.. I will hab inbalance air pressure in my ears. I will hab sharp pain when e plane takes off and landing time.. Ai yo! Y like tat? reali pity myself loz. Khai say i nit to check my CNS.. hahaz!

But today i reali buai tahan e driver loz, Y cant he use e straight path? Y must he drive e small road, doing all e turns n driving so fast. Wah.. No joke loz, i nearly puke inside e cab loz, i trying very hard to ctrl myself, tat stupid fellow simply dont care loz. Wah Piang a! Somemore we din put seatbelt wor.. Wah lao a!! Dont wana take cab anymore liao, In future, either i drive or take mrt.. dont wana take risk man! :(

Nice Gathering

Same as usual spend my weekend very "wisely" pack with programs. Din reali hab a full rest, nvm its still new year period ma, wah! so fast loz, CNY is ending this sunday, ai yoh! i haben collect enuff hong bao lei... haha! Wellz, went for a good buffet @ Riz Calton w Evon,her hubby, little ashli, min,warren n cynndee.. E place is so high class loz, tink got 5 stars ba, reccommended by min, E buffet is good as well. worth e $$ lots of variety. Sorrie din take pics of e food, busy with little ashli.. haha! So damn cute loz she, if god can give me one cute little sweetheart like her enuff liao.. wahaha! (i know, day-dreaming again)

She like e bag we bought for her ..

So happy with her bag..

She is eyeing on e watermelon ... haha!

Gong xi Fa Cai

Today is "Ren Ri" .. Happy Birthday to All wor.. This year CNY like no feeling lei, dont feel like new year.. juz like any other day. CNY is getting quieter and quieter liao.. dont know yyy?? Mummy say because we grow up le ma, last time when we are still young.. Every CNY, will gather together to relative house, go visiting and play with all e cousins.. now lei, some got their own family liao, some busy with bf, some even migrate to HK.. all like separated. Relative also getting lesser n lesser liao... Sian loz. but wat to do? no matter how, we still got to go on de ma..

Woo.. Next year this day, tink will be working @ hospital loo.. celebrate wit my patients.. haha! Must tink positive ma.. If you are happy, celebrate where also the same de.. Right? Now busy studying for test next week loz.. reali "Tai Ka Tai Xi" loz(cantonese) fall sick during CNY.. hopefully all e suai things all take away,let all good things come... Okido la.. Dont Talk mani mani liao.. Going Esther house bai nian lata... haha!

A Great Experience

Today We had our IV therapy Phrase(Practical) Test, Waah piang a! We reach sch @ 0730am, and guess wat? esther went in @ 1030am, and i went @ 11am loz, I was so nervous and worried tat we are not able to make it for the "dining in the dark program". I will tell u more lata, lets talk abt e phrase test, I was reali damn nervous loz,(I knw i am not e oni one). Guess who i kana? Ms doris lim and a new teacher(i tink so, coz i haben seen her before) ok, watever it is.. i was so scared loz, imagine instead of 2 eyes looking @ u, is 4 eyes loz. my heart pumping so fast tat it nearly pop out loz. oh man!

But in the end, is e new teacher who assess me, she is reali very nice loz.. ai yah, i forgot to ask for her name lay, hope she will be my next CP teacher loz.. :D Anyway, whatever it is.. its over. Lets move on, e next challenge will be Geron test on Monday.. Oh dear, heard tat some of my frenzs dont reali hab e mood to study for e test on monday.. Hope they will be beta after a good sleep tonite.. Rem wat teacher say : Life still(skills) hab to get on... haha!

Lucky we manage to make it for e "dining in the dark" U must be tinking wat is it all abt? The objective of tis program is to put ourselves into their shoes. Before this, i was telling esther, if we cant make it for tis program, then dont go loz.. Now i wana say it will be a regret if we dont go. Its reali a rare opportunity man, U can nvr imagine the fear tat they are having. When I first step into the totally dark dining plc (its reali dark til it makes no diff whether u open or close ur eyes).. I reali feel the fear, in my mind.. i was thinking wat is it going to happen? how am i going to eat? i feel so alone @ tat time.. Where is everyone? tat feeling is reali... i dont know how to express.. everything u do, u got to use ur hand n heart to feel.. Now i understand y the blind has a very sensitive senses.. :) its not easy to accept the fact, i feel the most difficult part is how u choose to face it...

To: Rahman, Jia You!!
All of us...

Getting ready for the experience/challenge...

Mid of e week le ...

Everyone is so busy nowadays.. hardly see anyone updating their blog. dont know y i feel so tired so easily recently, can easily fell aslp de loz and best part i even din hear my alarm ring in e morning.. often got to jump out of e bed after looking at e time.. haha!

Phase test is coming this saturday, ai yoh! seriously til now i still blur blur de loz, dont reali know e steps, juz agar agar oni.. but lucky got 2 more days to practise.. i keep telling myself to jia you! hang on there, coz after this phase test no more le.. Geron test on monday loz.. ai yoh!!! Y got so "mani present" before e CNY.. "Advance "HongBao" from e sch izzit?!.. hahaz! :P Woo guess wat? Esther and i will be going for a program "Dining in the dark" on saturday. So excited about it.. Becoz we get to reali experience the situation tat the blind is facing.. how they manage their Daily living.. which i find is interesting loz, will update after we hab went for it.. :D
One thing i must learn, To stay Positive to Hab a stress free life... YEAH!

Finally its Friday !!!!

I hab been hanging there for a long time, desperately need a break man.. now suffering from mental block le.. today school end early but had to stay in school for e YEP meeting.. Had a super long day, our "character" thingz end about 5+pm, and after which follow by a meetin wit e teachers regarding e blood drive thingz.. Wah!! by e time reach home is about 7+pm liao.. but i feel pity for e teachers man, imagine we leave e sch le, they still having meeting in sch.. Wah Say! tats e back end job of e teachers tat we dont know. They more tiring loz.. Lucky my aimbition is not to be a teacher man.. Oops! haha!

CNY is coming in abt 2 weeks time.. so fast right? come to think about it, what hab i done or achieve in 2009... hmm.. maybe i successfully pass my yr 1 nursing n my final driving theory ... wahahaha! what abt urs? U dont hab to get big achievement to be happy, wat is more impt is e satisfaction u feel within urself.


Aana is still hanging on there ... :)

Tiring Day ...

As usual ... I am always tired. E fact is indeed i am reali tired, Everyday busy with so mani things, projects, never ending tests.. By e time i reach home aldy half dead. My ma keep asking me to sleep earli @ night. I wish i could man. Sch end abt 5-6pm everyday by e time i reach hm abt 7pm. Shower + eat.. 7+ - 8pm le.. Very limit time left to do revision loz. Ai yoh! Y time always pass so fast in school.. now is week 4 liao lay. In CP, is like One day = One year like tat.. hahaz.. i know i being"Kua Zhang loz"

Today end sch at 3pm, went home to hab a shower, take dinner and off for meeting wit e NTU ppl @ HSA til about 9pm. Treat ourselves Starbuck coffee to recharge ourselves for tonight. Gona burn midnight oil liao.. Tmr sure Emo in class de loz.. ENdure ENdure MUST Endure!!!!!!

I beta get going now....

Monday Blue-Black.. haha!

Haben been blogging for a long time le. Hmm.. wat hab i been doing lately? Wat else but study ne? yea! Today juz got our first bio science test 1.. I wouldn say its difficult n i wouldnt say its easy.. its e matter of how well we study loz. After taking this paper, I nearly hab a heart attack, can you believe tat i actually got e ans for 2 similar questions wrong?? One for e Mock test n today's paper.. My goodness! Reali heartache loz, my marks!!!!! Alamak.. Nvm, i will double triple make sure i get it right for my exam.

Juz share a bit for e bonding camp tat i juz went on last fri and sat, despite of e test today, we still manage to enjoy our camp. Especially our sentosa team building, We had amazing race and we build our own raft.. It was reali fun and i reali like my teamates man, united, one for all, all for one.. we dont blame each other for any mistake and we work together to solve the problem.. which i reali like it lotz.. Though we din not win any prize, but inside all our hearts.. we hab won.. "GUESS" did a great job!!! cant wait to go for e vietnam trip loz.. :)

*will upload some pic soon.. or you can view it at FB

So IRRITATED ...

What a Saturday morning i hab man???? Free WAKE UP CALL loz.. Tot i could wak up late becoz is weekend.. But one after another alarm clock... Is always either e construction work or e garang guni ... Oh god!!!! Can they juz work mon-fri? Or start work slightly later during e weekend?? Can you imagine those who slept late e previous night or juz came back earli morning after their work, finally can hab a good sleep.. then waken up by all this noise... Is damn irritatin de loz.. My god!!

Thursday bluezz..

Heard of thursday bluezz? Guess is only for me ba. Today got Insulin phase test for us, Piang a.. Damn nervous loz. I know this is not e first phase test wat, but somehow tis feeling will keep coming everytime it comes to phase test. I will nvr forget e first time i took e phase test, i still rem is "Transfering patient". Its reali a nightmare to me, e moment i step into e room.. My mind went blank, I juz couldnt tink of anything, I wana to give up at tat time, til now when i think of it i am still so frightened. but keep telling myself, no matter wat i must continue wit it. Thank god, i manage to pass in e end, but i was reali disappointed with myself. Everything went well during practising, but .. when it comes to actual test, i couldnt perform well.. I wonder how could i overcome this fear man, and when will i forget abt tis n move on.

Lucky today phase test was ok, i think i can pass ba.. Damn it.. I forgot to let e teacher check e medi again before i give to e "patient" loz. My god! and worst thing is it din come into my mind at all lei... I hope teacher wouldnt minus a lot of marks.. Ai yoz! I tell myself its over liao, stop thinking abt it. But still keep thinking eversince i finish e test til now.. haiz! Happy tat one test is over..

Monday Bluezz + Purple ...

Today is a long hard day man.. I should say everyday... This year is reali a hectic + Tedious year loz. How am i gona survive?? Super stress manz, Couldnt reali sleep well at night, even when its weekend, i wake up earli as well. Juz my auto alarm clock in my body wakes me up. But physically,I am so tired.. Hopefully things will get beta.

Juz watch e show "Xin Qing Da Dong". Its reali a damn nice and realistic show loz. Today's episode is about a mother left home 3 yrs ago and how e father manage to look after his 5 childrens. Is reali saddening loz. And guess wat? I cried throughout while watching e programme. I juz couldnt ctrl my feelings n tears juz keep rolling, even when i was sharing some tots with my ma. She says: "Ai yoh! Y u cry til so jia luck even when taliking to me?".. I dont know how to reply.. I juz feel so lucky n comfort though i am not living a luxury life,but my family members are together loz, and we dont hab to face bad financial problem. sometimes i feel tat i am reali 生在福中不知福... Always not content loz.. From now on, must learn to appreciate what is given to me, no matter good or bad.

Is it reali tat nice ??

Because of this loaf of bread, I search high n low @ both of e NTUC to get this .. Is it reali tat nice? til e breads run out so fast.. Hahaz! Or because it is so economic?.. Such big loaf only cost $1.65 (u.p) now offer only cost $1.45 ... So CHEAP!!! Wahaha! Ya I know i m behaving more like auntie nowadays..

Now i reali know How impt Savings ar.. You wouldnt know when raining days will come? so can only starts saving now. Juz read an article which taught ppl how to save ? Which i feel is quite useful. In the past, I always tell myself, "I will save at the end of the month,e extra $$ i hab left after all my expense." but end up.. there will nvr hab any remaining. :(

Now i realise tat my method is wrong... Savings shld always be from the beginning of e month, not e end... Frm e article it says, Every month set aside 10% of ur total income as ur saving and if possible try to open another a/c mainly for savings. U can increase ur savings as the year goes by. After reading it, I find tat its quite effective and decide to follow this method. Wahaha! :P

New Toy ..

Today is a totally "flat" day.. School end at 1pm, Then went with Esther to collect her passport @ lavender. Aftertat we went to e Hawker Centre @ Golden Mill to eat "Hia Mee", Is damn nice and BIG bowl loz, and it cost only $3 wor.. WOW!! hahaz! Din manage to take e pic of it.(too eager to eat) Mahahaha! Travel back to school, to submit our forms n etc for e trip de. Cant wait for our camp to come. Then we went shop shop awhile @ Tampines..

After which I went to mit my frenz to buy Camera, Y suddenly e urge to buy? Wellz, I hab been wanting to get one, I tot i could save some $$ for camera becoz i got e LG viewty which i find e cam is gd enuff.. But recently, I find tat my phone always gets low batt easily + it starts to hab slow effect when taking pic and most heartache is some pic i feel tat e pic is well taken but it also turn out to be quite blur as well.. in e end, kinda disappointed. So decided to get one camera instead.

After walking around Little india to search for Camera. I ended up @ home only @ 8pm, I am so dead tired now....

After i bought e camera, I feel kinda heartache loz, but come to think of it, actually quite a good deal, Its has a special function called " Make up mode" is like photoshop thingy.. 12.1 megapix, video, and its comes with a free pouch, 8G memory card + an extra batt.. In e end,Actually Its quite a worth one.. and last but not least, it comes with my fav color. Yea man!

3rd day of school

Today is e 3rd day of school and we are aldy drain out, what can we say except .. Stress and tired... Time table is super or i should say quite tedious, almost everyday.. starts at 8am, end at 5-6pm.. oh man! Not muchi time left for revision at hm after school.. Oops! I m not complaining here, juz grumbling ... hahaz! by e time i reach home, aldy half dead.. my batt are flat man. Wellz.. Juz pray hard, I can make it through this semester.. I very scared my results will drop loz, which i die die also cannot let it drop.. Haiz! Now can only pray to god.. Give me more energy so tat i can push myself harder to keep moving on.. (".)

Jia You..Jia You..Jia You... "If U think U can, U can de.." U are who U think U are..."

Oh.. i hab finally tried e Milky Foot thingz on sunday, not bad wor, e first feeling is shiok.. reali smoothing to e foot loz.. but hor after a few days, when e dead skin starts to peel, its kind of painful wor( like pricking pain).. My ma say my foot looks disgusting now coz my skins are starting to peel off... now e feeling is like uncomfortable loz,coz e skin is dangling .. now i cant use "manual peel off" coz i am suppose to wait for it to peel of by itself...

Hope to see my "baby foot" soon ... Ahahaha!

What a mess ??

I finally finsh clearing e mountain of Books and Clothes in my cupboard.. its enough to tire me out man. Din realise i was keeping so mani rubbish , my god!!

Well.. Now is so muchi beta, hopefully i can maintain it.Hee..Hee! Owww.. Its gona be school reopen soon, feel so lazy loz.. I was telling my ma, I am going for a war soon.. hahaz!