Good Friday ..

Today is "good" friday .. but to me, not good at all.. Home alone, everyone got their own programme but not me. One thing is becoz no mood also. Suddenly feel so emo.. 3 days of weekends.. but dont hab e feel. Yesterday bio dont even understand a bitz lol, dont knw how lo. wana get someone to teach, but dunno who. Sometimes i reali regret, Y? when i hab e chance to study hard, dont work hard.. I am a NT students, still Bu Zhi Liang Li de go take "O" level.. of coz cant make it. I shld knw how much i weigh.. very low morale now. keep pushing myself, but i am not sure how much energy do i hab to keep me going.. BUT one thing for sure.. I AM NOT GIVING TO GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT..
Jia You Jia You Jia You!!!! If i think i can make it, I definately can make it ... Chemistry Suan Shen Mo.. I juz nit more time and patient to conquer it..

NYP life ...

Today is e 3rd day school.. everyone around me hab been asking me, Hows sch? hows everything? I am still trying to cope and adjust.. At e moment, other than stress, lost and not leavin out BLUR.. asking me y stress? hmm.. school lecture is ok so far, understand wat e lecturer is teaching.. but .. start to give myself unnecessary pressure le.. Assignments and projects coming up.. trying my best to focus in class.. Today's lesson is @ 8am, 2nd time late.. make me so rush and gan jiong.. Dont like loz, spoil my mood.. prefer to be slightly early, but as mention, still trying to adjust to everything.. bus timing, getting around the sch and finding for lecture hall and so on.. hopefully, by next week i will or i should settle dwn liao. I am actually a person slow in adaptation, i nit to take some time to get close to a person, and also environment. So as far as i could, i try to minimise movement from one place to another.. Like my previous job, I stayed for 4 yrs before i quit n join my NITEC in nursing.. Hope God will guide me in my 2.5yrs in this sch.. :D

A lesson tat i learnt ...

Wah lao a.. I damn dislike those "Hao Hao Ren" lol.. Pls la, where got such a saint in this world unless u are GOD.. Pik Chiz de lei, Y he always hab to be like "So Nice" make everyone like him.. Let me make it clear..I am not jealous but Find it irritatin.. Trying to say nice words, be nice and "always tink of ppl" Crap la lol.. Its veri Obvious when someone is angry and doesnt wana talk abt it.. Then he still can ask : "What happen? What wrong? Pls la, U aldy know whats e cause liao lol.. Wana act tat u care.. Juz shut it up manz.. Frm my previous experience, If i start to open my mouth, I sure Kana BOMB.. so this time, I juz pretend nothing happen, Juz keep quiet.. And true enuff i save myself frm kana scolding unncessary, U may tink tat he kana rite? U are wrong, Will u scold someone u reali love.. No loz.. whatever it is, dont tink tat i am a hackcare person, No i am not! Juz tat i knw how a person feel when they are angry.. juz dont wana talk abt it for the time being.. otherwise u are asking for trouble.. e arrow will be aim at u.. Maybe e weather is very hot today, everyone is juz in e bad mood.. Wellz..

Orientation Day

Little Card from stef, So touched.. she gave me as an encouragement becoz i am startin a new chapter of sch life.. (tats wat i always say: Its e thought tat counts, not e value of e gift) :D tks tks

Waited this day beri long liao, but dont know y when it finally come liao.. like not excited liao lo. Had a super boring day lei, dont like orientation.. hahaz! yaya!! I am a boring person rite?! No la, i juz dont like this loz, sori to say.. i feel a bit bo liao, maybe its age ma.. hahaz! Now i reali cant wait for class to start this monday.. count dwn to 2 more days. So far so gd.. My class oni got 18 students, though small but ok ma.. + wat reali delight me is e time table loz.. a bit "luan la" BUT.. super hao de.. 2 days start late, best part is mon & tues.. then e latest timin we end is til 5pm.. wah say.. super shiok manz.. thats e PLUS point la, Negative de is e sch damn big til hor.. I dont knw how to comment.. free exercise everyday lo, hopefully can lose weight by e end of 2.5yrs..

Wah!! No joke lei, seriously gain weight liao.. Sianz manz.. all my effort gone. Cant stay at home de loz, keep eating junk food.. naughty gal, where did my discipine go to.. cannot cannot!! Kor's wed coming liao.. got to wear my princess dress.. hahaz! oni for that day i am princess lo, after 12midnight become ping ming(normal gal) liao.. :)

*~Be that light tat Shines~*

My New Luff ...

Wana get a Doreamon Cover de, But Bu She De.. So end up get my melody cover.. only $10 + $8 screen protector.. if i buy juz e doraemon de cover is $18.. See? with 18 bucks i get 2 things instead of 1. Must learn to Save liao.. :D Melody also Cute ma.. hahaz! (Self-consolation) :P Ai ya.. Tot Can get student plan de,but overage liao..:P becoz i need unlimited sms badly lei.. imagine i can use up to 2000+ sms per mth.. oh god! Now must learn to control liao.. BUT my plan got 200 mins free talktime.. hee! can use talk de instead sms.. :D

心情好好噢

Though today's weather is cloudy de.. But in my heart is Sunshine de.. :D Had a good Sunday which give me energy to brighten my mood. Had a good sleep as well.. Really sweet sweet dream, feel like dont wana wake up.. :P We met as plan, went cycling and take a nice walk at ECP.. Thank God, for such a lovely weather, though it started to rain late afternoon, But we had a great great time. He take me with his bike and we went to sing K together. I had a lot of Fun, hope he does also.. Never feel such comfortable feelin with a guy before, in front of him.. I can juz be myself,nothing to hide,I can say anything, dont hab to act "Shu nv"... :D whereas my previous experience, Guys would hab expectation,they will say things like: "want their gf to cook for them lah", want their gf to be sweet la" those stuff. But He is different,He got this "magic" to make me happy n no pressure.. feel relax everytime i am with him. Sweet moments like he will carefully watch me,n make sure tat i am safe wit him. Happy that He share with me his problem and unhappiness wit me as well. What is that kind of feeling ne? Dont know and mystery ba.. hahaz! Juz wana enjoy every min wit him..hehe! Not hoping for anything, Juz wana keep and maintain this relationship bet us. He is like my angel n a gift from God specailly to me.. God ah.. Pls dont wake me up from this sweet sweet dreamsss... :) ~True Love is only Mutual. Yet, it need not be expressed in words. When Love is True, you just feel it ... ~ ("v"v")

杜德偉 - 天真 (邱淑貞演出)

Jealousy ...

-Why does she hab to keep telling me, How gd is He? -Why does she hab to pamper him so muchi? -Why She put so much effort on him? -Why does she hab to praise him in front of me? -Why In her eyes, He is always the prefect / thoughtful one? -Why does he hab to act like a hao hao ren? -Why do my heart ache so muchi whenever i hear abt him? -Why does she tink tat I want her to praise me at times? (asking for it) -Why no matter how much effort i put in, i feel tat i am not appreciated? -Why am i feeling so upset now? She says that becoz i am jealous, but her topic always link to how good he is, how thoughtful he is, how hardworking he is ... Y? Y? Y? Y does he hab to act like a saint, and make me feel like a devil? Juz because i am more independent in first of them, no matter how hard i try, I can never compare with her precious.. (!.!) Y ppl can easily be content and xinfu? Y cant i be like them... She always say i dunno her, she treat us equally.. no bias.. She din know that by saying how well and how gd he is, reali hurts me. She can go til e extend to keep talking abt him, til I say tats enuff, I dont wana hear anymore. Dont she know how i would feel? For instance, Yesterday I wanted to drive to yio chu kang, but she insist to wait for him to wake up, and ask if he wana drive us to yio chu kang and told him that i dunno e way. In e end, He ask me to drive there. So that he dont hab to waste petrol to drive us to and back.. Then oni she say anyone drive is ok.. WTH lol!! Ur Son speaks One word more than I say 100 words.. Can U be more fair to me anot? Can I hab more trust from U anot? Its ACTIONS NOT WORDS.. Dont juz keep saying U trust me with ur mouth, Prove to me that U TRUST ME.. U dont know how ur words hurt me at times.. (!.!) tearing in my heart ..

Monday 4/4/2011

Busy morning, Went back to school to collect Eagles award.. lucky Kor juz came back from night shift, then got car.. so i use lo.. Yipee.. finally drive on expressway liao, pa always scared i not familiar, ask me dont drive on expressway first. today i manage to do it on my own, with esther.. after which we went to do our ezlink card ... yeah! next tues can collect both our student pass + ezlink liao, and we are all ready to wait for school to starts on 18 .. Guess what? I am e guilty one who make mami angry again.. Ya, always me de lo.. dont know whats wrong with her, suddenly the face black like bao gong then raise her voice at me lei, i also dont knw wat hab i done lo.. ???? sometimes still prefer to work, cant wait to starts sch.. if not i at home huh, got to tolerate.. if i talk back, she say i nvr listen la, bad la, nvr care abt her la.. stick to me alot lo, til i sometimes cant breath, i knw she want companion.. becoz she is alone at home most of e time, but at time i go out too often, she will start liao, not happy, face black.. say i always go out.. not at home.. but ... this will nvr happen to kor de lo, stil her precious ma.. she will nvr be angry at him de. Haiz!! Now dont even dare talk to her, wait kana frm her again, i then dont want. beta wait til her mood swing period over first. Sometimes dont knw what to do lo? She say i always dont understand her feelings.. then me lei? who understand how i feel ... *sad*

Sunny Sunday

Went to kovan with Pa & Mami.. for breakfast and do some marketing, This 2 days mami not well, having fainting spell again.. haiz! dunno wats wrong lei, hope i got xray eyes so tat i can know wats going on, Y she keep having this. Everytime go out must be very alert, reali pray that god will watch over her.. hope her health will improve, somemore kor's wed is getting nearer le.. Yeah!! they were juz talkin very long din go overseas le, so i suggested to bring them go HK this yr end.. Must start to save $$ le, hoping to go on my Bday or nearer to my bday, dependin on e sch schedule .. hope can go as plan.. :D so happy.. something to look forward to.. Jia you!! Study hard, Work & Save hard.. hehehe!

Bloggii Time ...

Today went to do rebonding , sianz lol.. waste $$, waste time + got to sit der for 4 straight hours. Sit til my back also straighten liao, backside also pain ... bo bian.. haiz! dont wana look like "Lion Queen", so hab to do ma. Wah.. e hairdresser bu ke qi de cut a lot of my hair lo, i say trim a bitz, she say my hair badly damage liao, keep also no use. Heartache manz. But hahaz, feel my hair so healthy now. Like e salon, service not bad wor, keke! other customer is one to one, for me, one to two.. maybe they tot i dun understand cantanese loz, they were speakin in cantanese among themselves, saying my hair so thick, if one person do by e time finish doing night time liao, but they were saying in a joking way la.. then i started laughing also and agree with them.. hahahaz! Reali feel like a princess there, hehe! Xinku them le, their hands must be beri tired.. Wow..wow!! Exactly 2 more weeks from now, school gona start le wor, dunno how is it gona be.. should i say excited, worried or nervous lay.. mixed feeling ba.. Excited coz my dream finally fulfilled, Worried coz i scared i cant cope, Nervous coz dunno whats gona happen.. Pu Sa Po Bi ar.. Hope this 2.5 yrs is a smooth one.. gona work super doper hard becoz very competitive sia.. Stress ++ ... So this 2 weeks, i beta enjoy all i want first.. Ai yo.. Think recently i pamper myself too muchi liao, bought a lot of clothes manz, keep tinking poly can wear, EXCUSES lol.. I beta see no evil when i go shopping.. No buying of clothes from now til end of e yr liao, but wait i hab to buy a night grown and a pair of shoes for Kor's wedd.. tats it! so happy and excited, its getting nearer and nearer liao, must make myself look like princess.. keke! This morning was telling mami, my BEST frenz Jiahui gona married next yr end, Drea going to get a new flat with her bf, mindy getting married next yr also... hahaha! Then she say "what abt u?" "when's ur turn?" I juz laugh.. dunno, stil nobody wan yet.. wah!! thinking suddenly gd frenz around me all got gd news lay.. Happy for them lo, give them my blessings manz.. :D