Teach me how to lose weight???

This weekend is gona be feast for me again.. Starts with Tomorrow, going to kuishing bowl for jap buffet to celebrate min's post bday.. Saturday going to novena (royal hotel) for some steamboat buffet with my girlfrenzs ... and last but not least Sunday meeting meinu n ling for dim sum @ Goodwood hotel ... My god!! My weekend is simply juz Eat n Eat n Eat loz... i know 能吃是福 ... but tink sooner or later i will "Fa Fu" loz.. haha!
Woo..hu! 3 weeks has gone, count dwn to 6 weeks more..hmm.. lets minus Weekends ba, Wow! 5 weeks more.. keke! Ren Ren Ren!!!!!!!!!!!! if cannot Ren aldy, still must REN!!

I made it ...

Finally I manage to go through this tough day... since morning i wasnt in a good mood, Ya! i know my mood hasnt been good for e past few days, aldy trying my very best to ctrl myself le. lucky today at work, not so bad, though my face a bit long frm e beginning, back i manage to put it back to normal after breaks.. haha! (ok..i know i am lame AGAIN)
Dont understand again.. Y some ppl juz like to bring themselves up by stepping onto somebody.. Dont understand right? Example: they like to discriminate u, so tat others think tat she is good and beta than U .. Who is she trying to prove to? Do you tink tat i care or bother? Oh Pls! It juz make me look down on u, becoz you are oni capable of putting a show for others to see.. watever u do, will not affect me.. i will simply ignore..

Super sianz de loz, why this type of ppl still exist in this world... but well, there is stil nice n good ppl around.. this weekend is gona be a good one.. Saturday will be G4 day, been waiting for a long long time, tink we last met is last yr christmas time. Wah.. long sia, simply love to be with them, coz haben been crazy for a long time le.. haha! yeh! I'm not a quiet type.. Last but not least, Sunday will be meeting Ling n Eunice, they are going to celebrate my bday earli.. wellz, its more like a gathering for me, doesnt matter abt e celebration.
Aiyo! i gona miss MWS this round, heard esther say they going for dog show.. Argg!!! I wish i could join them as well.. but how to spit into two.. got to give up one. Ur take some photos for me to see K.. :D

Dont Know Y ....

A lot of Question marks in my head? with No ans ... Din Sleep Well for e past few days, tats bad! if i dont get enuff sleep, i will start to lose temper and get agitated easily. Sometimes I reali wonder Y i work so hard and Do so muchi for wat? End up wat do i get? Satisfaction? Appreciation? Rewards? Or WAT? Y do i deserve to get certain treatments or remarks tat reali disappoint me..

Maybe I shouldnt be over active or over "nice" to ppl ... they step on my head n tinks tat i am ok with it... Not looking forward to attachement from now, I juz do my job ... So sick n tired of it .. tat kind of feelings is suckz.. Reali hab a second tot Y do i choose this path ..

Anyway, Today suppose to hab red cross meeting de .. but ended up helping them @ e event.. Not too bad, quite enjoy ourselves despite of e tiredness.. Once in a while is Fun ..

E three of us doing duty together ... it was fun

My Dear Satursday

Went makaning last night, wow.. quite a heavy one, til i din hab breakfast today... e food is still stuck in my stomach.. i know is kinda disgusting, hab been constipating for 4 days. My stomach is like bloating like no other biz, so i couldnt tahan anymore, went to buy supp n put it.. E feeling is terrible, now can reali understand wat e patient is going through..

My mood is still not reali good, thinking of CP reali make me "sick".. haiz! unpleasant things n with toxic ppl around.. well.. No matter how i hate, e fact tat i still hab to go through it.. 7 weeks more, wat keeps me going is e short trip after all tat i am going through.. Ai yo! very low morale leh... dont know how am i going to pass through..

Last night while walking in e dark passageway, I was thinking in life, is it true tat after darkness.. we will see light... I love to take night walk, it really feel so relax because there is no ppl around.

Yeah! tmr is sunday, gona mit my red cross frenzs .. kinda looking forward, becoz they are nice n fun to be with.. :)

One More Day to Go ...

Oh Man!!!! I am so tired, I know i always complain tat i am tired almost everyday or even everyday.. haha! But i am reali reali reali tired... Now even with backache. Yesterday was noon shift, by e time i reach hm n settle to sleep is aldy 12+am, and i got to wake up @ 4+am for my morning shift today..
Reali HATE it man, is like so damn tiring, then today cant reali focus n concentrate in wat i was doing.. i was reali struggling, keep double checking my work, juz to make sure everything is correctly done. Especially e documentation.. Wah piang a!!!!!!! + Do a lot of bed making today, SN Diyanah was so nice to help me n ask me Y din i get help frm others, I told her everybody is so busy wit their work, dont wana disturb them also.. So i do myself . So touched by her concern loz..(its so comforting) Not juz her, All e Ward 47 Sisters/Nurses are so Caring, Helpful ..I love this ward, I know i hab mention a lot of times.. They r so Great man.. Making our attachment a pleasant one. :D

I guess i hab to get used to it SLOWLY, stil cant adjust myself for e shift.. My concern is next year's posting, we'll gona be on night shift.. U guys know tat i cant go w/o sleeping for a night, I will be like stoney.. Haiz! dont wana tink too muchi, take things as it goes... Y worry abt things tat hab yet to come or happen rite..?? Whats impt is NOW, e very moment..

Oh! Jus Grumble Grumble oni,will still love my job... and will "never say DIE..."(oops! copyright frm engergizer batt ad) Ahahaha!:P

Back To School

My monday is so beautiful today. Went back to school for Stimulation Training, din sleep well last night, tot this morning sure die,no mood n stoned de.. No wor! First thing i went back to school met Aisha n Chui Yee at e lift.. So happy to see nice ppls earli in e morning, they make my day wit their beautiful smile. hee..hee! its true ok! Who would like to see a BLACK face earli in e morning loz.. Ahahaha!
I was very stressed last night, keep thinking wats going to happen today. + i didnt prepare myself for today loz. Actually not so bad leh, Had Problem based learning, given scanario,juz like what we did previously in school lah, but today i enjoy it muchi loz. Lucky thing i can answer e questions given man..
Today is a fruitful n Smooth day for me.. Enjoy e learning process in school..Arg.. Dont know is it becoz i hab always been in afternoon shift for last week, tmr is morning shift ... feel kinda of lazy to get out of bed super earli in e morning ... :P

These 2 days dont know why's wrong wit me.. yesterday was Autum's incidence, then juz now e whole chair fall on my foot.. Wah pengz a..!!! at tat moment, I dont know wana cry or laugh loz.. Sometimes things juz happen when u least expect.. But Y always bad thing happen?! where is all e good thing....? (".)

~ The Quality of Your Life is determined by how you feel at any given
moment.How You feel is determined by how you interpret wht's happening around
you, notby the events themselves... ~

Shelter Day

wake up earli morning today for shelter, feeling so tired now.. hmm..today I din do muchi. Only Yvonne, Esther n myself went today.. I feel so bad n upset, Autum must be feeling terrific now.. suppose to bath her, but halfway through Carpark, attack her n pull her dwn frm e wooden bench.. As my hand is soapy, its so difficult for me to grab her up.. feel so helpless n scared at tat time. but couldnt help her, lucky yvonnen esther came n help me.. Feel relieved tat she is not hurt, but i still feel very bad, she must be suffering frm fright now.
Aftertat i dont dare to bring e dog over to bath. I scared le..me "Zhen Mei Yong". Haiz! My God.. til now i still cant get over with it loz, keep thinking of it.. So Sorriee Autum..
Guess wat? not long after Carpark attack Autum, Carpark was attack by another dog.. (dont knw e name) He got a bit on her ears n leg.. also poor thing la, but Oops! in my heart, was like (serve her right, who ask her bully autum..) :P

In e noon, after our lunch.. we bring yvonne's doggies, Ivy's doggi, and 2 lucky doggies (Shiba n TimTim) from shelter for a walk @ Pasir Ris Park ... haha! think they reali enjoy themselves, we too.. :)

Now i sound like a man ...

Had a great day with Jie today, had dim sum @ chinatown together."YumCha" is still e best!! after which we went Suntac KBOX to sing .. love singing muchi lotz, never get tired singing, becoz tats e time when i feel tat i can be myself, not becoz i sing well.. Its becoz its e time i can really let go of everything ... Sing til my lungs out. We haben been singing together for a long long time le, haha! think nobody can sing as crazy as us.. We sing, We jump, We dance like nobody business.. becoz we dont care.. We are reali so transparent to each other, nothing to hide, nothing to pai say, We can talk about anything, So click to each other.. til our parents say we are like twins.. haha! Reali thank god for putting her into my life.. Reali treasure this relationship. Thanks to Our grandma for blessing us. :)

haha! something happen funny happen while we were at e KBOX, e first room tat was given to us, was reali small, e condition of e seats was bad, and best part ... Our selected songs are always cut off, or our screen will black out for a long time.
Til jie buai tahan, ask e person for a change of room, e room was bigger a bitz, everything was ok, but still got e problem with our songs, stil cant be capture... and yes.. Ask for a change of room.
We were thinking is it we "Suay ar" Y others got no problem,ours juz cant work.. then i was telling her, securli they give us a VIP room..
Wah.. True enuff wor, they reali got us a VIP room + give us an hour free.. E room is like for 20 pax, but there is oni 2 of us.. we are like WOW!!! Now is room is like SO BIG to us, after e 4+1 hour singing ... now i reali got no voice liao, dont feel like talking loz, coz it sounds horrible man, hopefully it will get beta tmr... haha!

I feel so happy n useful despite of e tiredness n physical body aches ... I love my job so muchi.

New beginning of CP

Oh.. Y am i having a super bad headache since i reach home, feeling very pik chiz now loz, and my eyes is like trying very hard to keep it open. today is e start of CP, hmm.. not too bad, din reali do muchi, Mr De leon did a lot of briefing today, He damn Cute loz, e way he talk, we cant help but to keep laughing ... very nice teacher.. Our NC also, a nice lady, Well.. Every Nurses in e ward are so nice n friendly, We love this ward super muchi. Sure to hab a lot of fun working with them..

Juz went in to ITE website to see my exam results, I know it has been released long time ago.. but my result has been bugging in my heart for a long time.. Lucky thing my GPA is still not so bad ... So i still got chance to buck up.. Must pull up my socks in CP, hope I can pull up my Overall GPA.. Suddenly, Feel tat i still got hope.. haha! *Tink*suddenly i see some light in front of my path.. ahahaha! Hopefully, I dont disappoint myself this time..... :)

Home Alone 4 ...

haha! Yap .. Beautiful Sunday, All alone at home. Got gf de go dating , Pa n Ma go shopping.. So me? stay hm loz, dont reali like to go out on sunday coz next day nit to work .. preparing myself for tomorrow's attachment, kind of scared n worry alot.. though e 1st ward tat we will be going to, is no longer new to us. But tis means tat more n higher expectation from us le, NO MORE "New", "I dont know", and definately no such things as "BLUR" liao loz ... + it will be a new teacher taking over, wats his expectation like? got to adopt to his way of assessing n all...
Ai yo!! Problems are really created by man loz.. Y am i thinking so muchi? giving stress to myself ne? Juz look forward, God will always provide e way ...

No matter wat it is and how it will be ... believe tat Trials n Obstacles are meant to make us stronger, you are definately stronger than you tink you are... Stay positive n everything will be juz alrite de ... Good Luck Gals!!

Well ....

Juz came home from shopping with mummy @ e new shopping place @ farrer park. Din reali enjoy it, coz it juz opened barely a month n most of e shops are still under renovation. So nothing muchi.. But enjoy e time with mummy, becoz once i start CP, i know tat there will be less time wit her ...

Haben been blogging for a few days, juz found out tat winnie wants to Quit nursing.. Felt so sad, n felt so wasted for her, becoz we have been through so muchi ... BUT come to tink abt it, Its also gd tat she come to realise tat this course dont suit her and its not what she want. Beta to find out earli than to regret after 10 years down e road. She reali make me remind of myself, 7 years ago, if i hab reali make up my mind n stay firm with my passion, I wouldnt hab wasted so muchi time on doing e things i dont like, n not dare to voice out to my parents. Haiz!

Monday starts CP loo ... 打起精神來 ... 加油!!!!! 9 weeks very Fast Passss de .. ^^

My mood is Juz e same as e weather

Wake up @ 10+am, tot mummy will be out by then.. coz she told me to look after e house yesterday as she is going out todae wit her frenz, tink end up cancel ba. She cook some fried bee hoon for lunch, but i tot since its cooked, i must well take my Brealunch tog..

Dunno y last night cant sleep again, Keep thinking of a lot of things + miss my ah ma a lot a lot(she used to talk to me a lot of things abt life), todae not reali in a gd mood loz, maybe having a little mood swing ba. Oh! its raining and it adds on to my moodiness loz.. Veri Sianz, juz dont feel like doing anything now, but there is so muchi things waiting for me to do. Argggg!!!! Hopefully e cloudy clouds in me will drift away very soon. Dont wana be disturb at this point of time..
Y cant things be as simple as ABC ne? Y must we tink it so complicatedly??
Hope tat After e "Rain", I will see rainbow ... Aana Hor (Jia YOu Jia You JIA YOU)

12 hours of sleep

Woo.. evensince i came home yesterday been sleeping on n off, yesterday reach hm, slp from 1+pm til 5+pm.. aftertat had my dinner n watch some tv til 11pm. Then went to sleep from then til 10.30am this morning .. Wah.. very shiok loz.

Today had a long day too, went bugis wit Esther, go fix my instrument(thanks Esther for bringing me there) and had our lunch there..

After which took a cab back to school to hab our Red Cross Committee meeting.. Had Our dinner together then head back home ...

This is my "Liu Qin", has been sick for a few years now.. after ops hao le..haha!

Busy Eating ... Cant be bother of me.(haha!)

E fried wanton are very nice, not very oily ..

My Fav Wanton Mee..

Back from Chalet le ...

Check out today @ abt 1030am, Had our breakfast before we go home.. Wah, when i reach hm is like, I got this feeling.. Home is stil e best place. Feeling damn tired now,though my eyes are open, my mind are sleeping le, going to take a nap after this..

Reali like e chalet a lotz, we had bbq for e first night n 2nd day afternoon.. Guess wat? both din turn out well, rain halfway bbq-ing so kinda spoil mood loz.. ai yo! wat makes god so sad again.. so muchi tears.. but second day was fun, we tried their facilities, like sauna n steam bath.. NICE! reali let u sweat out loz, n aftertat all our face so red. haha! Most of e time, we juz stay in e chalet, Chat n slack loz.. was a relaxing n enjoying lah.

Oh man! Next week, Attachment le... Dont reali looking forward to it lei, How huh? kinda sianz.. Okayi.. I shall reali enjoy my last few days of holidays and will prepare to slog for e next 9 weeks le.. Gambatae!!!! (",)v

Busy Week

Hab been very busy for e past few days.. wat am i busy wit? hmm.. act i cant rem wat happen on thur liao, haha.. i got STM ma. Friday was a super tiring day for me, i wake up at 0545am..not PM Oo.. Ya, went for my 2 trial test(driving theory) which starts @ 0815am, n e other starts @ 0905am, so is kind of like one after another .. and finally e REAL de. But as u hab guess it.. Yes, I failed AGAIN. I reali dont know where the HELL i go wrong loz, I was very confident tat i could make it.. BUT.. Somehow it disappoint me once again. I did it very slowly, read e question n answer over n over again.. But WHY? n WHERE? reali a BIG ???? loz,
Call mummy and tell her abt it, she ask me Y??? I reply I also dunno YYY .. sound dramatic rite? but its true.. Sianz lei.
After e test, went to mit Esther @ AMK hub, had our lunch together.. and i suggested to watch movie, coz weekday student price is $6/movie.. So cheap loz. And Guess wat? thanks to her n her brilliant idea.. We watch "Poebia 5"(a horror movie loz) Piang a! I was so scared loz, n was awake by e show.. but overall quite nice lah, some parts funny. Hmm.. i give 3 n a half stars ba.
Thereafter, We went for our Red Cross event le, Hmm.. went to get our NDP participation Certificate.. Not too bad, had lot of fun catching up wit e frenzs there. :)

Yesterday wake up @ abt 6am, Ya! had volunteer work to do @ AMK. Juz some of my tots after all e work, Our mission is to paint n clean their house. For me, My Grp is in charge of painting n cleaning a house of an uncle who is partically blind. When i first step into his house, I was quite scared to move e things n furniture of e house because i dont know wat am I or will i going to see.. feel like backing up.i ask myself " Is it to late to regret?" But with a second tot, Y am i here for? reason becoz they nit help frm us ... tat makes me stay on. Imagine cleaning a big patch of lizard dropping tat has stick onto e wall for a long time. Yucki! MY god!

Never in my life tat i hab do painting.. Now i reali can understand how tiring it is juz to paint e wall.. its difinately not an easy job. (".) while i was cleaning n painting looking at e condition of e house, I ask myself "How can a person actually stay in here?" Nothing on e bed, but oni a mattress.. no pillow, no booster.. no nothing ..

Wat i hab learnt through this experience : Always be contented. Life still goes on, no matter wat circumstances we are in... instead of complaining this, picking on this n tat. Learn to appreciate,not everyone is as lucky as us. I feel tat Giving is muchi happier than Receiving ... Reali had a great day today .. Everything is worth while, Especially when u see tat SMILE.. :)








Thank Q uncle for making our day so meaningful ...