Do you remember when is the last time u cried? Is it becoz you lost someone close to you, or is it someone who reali touched ur heart, there are many reasons y one person cry, "Crying" is one of the way ppl express their emotions or they release themselves ...
Tomorrow I am or rather we are going to fly off to vietnam, I tot I wouldnt be missing home.. But i did and started to miss home aldy. This is e first time i m gona leave home for so long, I am taking this trip as a "Independent training" for myself. I hope i will gain more than expected, and grow up of coz not physically but mentally. What is life w/o my mummy by my side? I am too pampered at home. Its time i step out of my comfort zone, learn to do everything by myself.
It reali sadden me, when i come to tink of wat hab i done for my mum? sometimes, its juz a small request from her.. I cant even fufill it. There is a few times she ask me to bring her out for a meal, I will say I am broke or wait til when i hab free time. BUT when will tis FREE TIME really come. She will add on and say Nvm, all i hab to de is to bring me out, and she will pay for the meal tat we eat. I felt so ashamed. Sometimes its not the matter of $$, is the matter of the HEART. Each time i rejected her, the disappointed face that she give me make me feel so bad and guilty. She has worked so muchi and hard for the family, what hab we give her in return? What she want is juz my accompany.
Frm now on, I told myself tat i wana make changes in my life. These are the goals i set for myself:
1. Control my temper
2. Be more patient
3. Bring my mama out at least once a month
4. spend more time wit family/frenzs (balance)
5. Be positive +++
6. give more than expected
7. SMILE more
8. Focus on one thing at a time
9. Pass my Practical Driving Test
10. Do well in my Nursing and get into Polytechnic
2010 is gona be a Fruitful Year... Aana Jia You!! Gambatae ... (",)V
Friday, March 19, 2010
好久沒有大哭一场了
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Not just another day ...
No doubt it has been a tiring week for each of us, reporting to school everyday to do e packing and preparation work before we set off to vietnam. Am happy that i am involved and so are my family. Reali glad tat my family members are actually very supportive, my mum went all e way to pack some of her clothes for donation, she even wanted to donate some $$, My Pa plan to drive me to e airport on Sunday early morning like 4+am as its difficult to get a cab at tat time, and they dont want me to spend $$ to call cab. They even ask me not to buy any souvinoir back for them becoz i am going for volunteer trip. Reali feel touched and encouraging loz.. :D
Well.. its getting nearer and nearer to our YEP trip, Wow.. I am getting more and more excited man, this is the first mission trip tat i am going to.. wonder hows everything is gona be like. Hab been overseas for quite a nos of time, but this trip is gona be a special one. Seriously, I dont know how muchi i can do for them.. but i will try my very best to do what i can. I am sure those friends who are going with me,share this feeling. Lets hab Fun together and make this 14 days an enjoyable one for all of us including them. It will be a great experience .. :)
Friday, March 12, 2010
12/03/2010
ITs Friday... But its a blue-black friday for me. Juz went for my 3 super doper jab : H1N1, Flu + Tetnus jab.. Cool rite? best part, all at one go loz.. Now my right hand is like damn pain loz. Dont dare to move too muchi, coz tats e hand tat suffer 2 jab together. One thing I find super funny loz.. e doc is trying to distract me by talking to me, then i was like telling e doc can you dont talk to me?! I cant concentrate wat u are talking.. hahaz! then he say Y u scared of injection ar? then i was like.. YA! He say "Orh.. i was trying to distract u ma by talking to u, actually i also scared of injection de. Then i laugh.. hahaha!
Wah..before tat it was reali a long wait loz, too almost e whole noon to wait for e jab. Youliang so cute loz, he say he take aldy immediately whole hand numb + shivering.. make us all scared. Dont know y my hand so pain now lei, initiately.. i was still telling esther not pain de lei, no feel aldy.. but after i come back home, my mama say put hot water on cotton bud then tap on e injection site then e med will spread out.. tmr not pain le.. Y now so PAIN ne??!!!
I still ask my ma "can bath ma?" haha! she say "can la.." then i ask her " then y baby after taking injection cannot bath huh" then she laugh n say " U baby meh... can lah" ahahaha! :P
Tmr is gona be a busy day wor.. Got to go back school for Our yep trip briefing ... then aftertat got class bbq.. Yeah!!!! but aftertat i got family dinner leh, tinking how lay. Ai yoh! Y family dinner always lang-ga with my plan de ... alamak! dont knw how lei..
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Exam Fever is now On ....
Time flies as we always say.. *blink blink* 3 month has gone, damn fast loz. Tmr is exam le, guess everyone is having sympathetic reaction now. hahaz! Dont know y? hab been taking so mani countless of exam le, but still we feel gan jiong each time when exam comes. wellz, maybe thats one of our body reaction ba.
First paper will start off with PCA tmr, after which tues will be bio paper and Woo huu.. will be holidays le.. but right now, my mind is full of bio loz, study PCA halfway suddenly i will think of wat is hormones? Wat is CSF? hahaz! Oh..Oh..wat has it got to do with PCA... :P So mani things to study and remember, hope tomorrow my temporal lobe will work well manzz. Ai yoz a...cant afford to hab a B lei. all effort will be in the "long gang" loz, very pressurized man. Tink tonight will be a sleepless night for me, i aldy prepare myself for that manz. Hope tat everything goes smoothly tmr..
"Success will find a way, Failure will find an excuse" Jia You People!!! Tmr is the day for you to perform after 3 mths of hard work... Give it a best shot!! :D
