My Wan De Full Weekend...

Haben had so much joy for a long time, Happiness can be easy too.. Especially with people u love. Spend my so call full sat with dearie, went to watch Kungfu panda with dearie and shopping. Hee..hee.. though he fell aslp halfway, (".) then went back home for dinner, and Sun he still join me and mami for shopping.. Though both of us are tired but happy oh, xinku dear liao.. he must be bored for e whole day.. :)

Kor's wedding day is getting nearer le, this coming sat will be his big day.. yahoo!! new family member aboard.. So excited for them, though there's a lot arguement in bet but this is part and pieces of life. Our House are decorated for this big event. Today is Esther's Op day too, wonder how's things getting on, actuali wana go to give her moral support de, but becoz of kor's wedding. Mami say cant go hospital to visit. Hope things are smooth, everything ok.. waiting for somebody to update me..

Beautiful SundaY ...

Since yesterday I got very bad bodyache sia, my shoulder n my back.. Used mami's Ucozy to massage, Shiok la.. But at night .. Aches like HELL lei, u wouldnt believe it.. Touch lightly also Pain.. Mami help me manual massage for awhile n apply "Go Yeo" for me, til now still aches lei. "Cham liao" ... Tmr going for 3 steps 1 bow, its like yearly event for me.. pray that mami will be in gd health, Family will be safe n sound, Ppls whom i love will be happy ... :)

Early morning, Pa and Mami went to Marina Bay Sand wit aunties n Uncles.. Guess wic part they go?? Yea.. Casino!! ha ha.. For me, I wouldnt not spend $100 to go in lo, waste $$ lei.. I dont gamble de.. but they happy jiu hao.. Today Home alone 1 lo, ha ha!! Kor juz went out to his gf house.. He power sia, last night work night shift, oni slept a couple of hours then wake up liao.. Me cannot de lo, I will stoned whole day.. Peaceful at home lo,wit music with me..

My Agenda for today:
1) Meds card doned, read through it
2) Pharmaco revision ( Mock Test on Thurs)
3) Housework (Hang clothes, sweep/mop floor)
4) Go jogging in e evening (hopefully still hab energy)
5) Prepare own dinner
6) Bio revision
7) Meeting Zhou Gong by 11pm.. :P

My hectic Week

I nearly suffocated from e busy week. Doing Project and school work is driving me crazy. WTH!! this is only e 4th week, feel so breathless.. Every morning going through e tough process, apart from walking long distance frm home to interchange + a super heavy bag. How i wish got someone send me to sch.. maybe if kor is workin night shift, i will drive to sch ba.. cannot take it liao, I stil hab 2 yrs to go, minus attachment la.. at least make me think tat is faster a bitz. Still trying to cope wit sch life. My poor dear got to listen to my crap everyday. Reali touched by him, i stay up til very late on wed night to do my project, that day he got ot til 10+ then reach hm.. He acc me to finish til 1am then go sleep. Then next day wake up early to work + OT again. Haiz finally project finish le, its a relief lo, but not reali satisfied wit my presentation. really horrible.. very disappointed sia. But.. what can i do? its over le.. Move forward aana!!!

Today see shyanne really forget all my stress n depress.. So cute!!! Really my baobei lo, love her so muchii.. Finally took photos and carry her.. ai yoz, oni left din kidnap her ... wahahaz! If oni i can hab my own cute n healthy baby.. * ok i know.. stop dreaming* Today suppose to meet him too but .... ya, he got OT again, its been a whole week liao. Can he dont be so busy? hahahaz!

It'sss Fri..Day!!!!!

Mama Zhui Da...So happy u like this, hope it helps to relieve ur aches.. Love U lotz!!























First Class Photo @ NYP, NR1151 .. Like tis class, but sadly we will oni be tog for 6 mths...










Subgroup ...
Though we are from e same class in ITE, but life in NYP bring us closer.. :)










Tomorrow gona be busy but lookin forward...

Tired, Tired, So tired ...

This whole week hab been a busy and tiring week. My Whole body like dont belong to me le. Almost everyday reach home late. No mood to do anything, dont really feel like eatin, but eat juz for e seek of eating.. Projects and school work is stressing manz. Argg!! I feel so lousy, Pimples outcome.. tink too stress liao + dont sleep well at night. What can i do? Got e Heart wana do homework, revision and research.. But No enough energy. :( Same to him, this whole week, we din meet.. haiz! He also OT most of e days, suppose to meet this sat but he got OT.. *sad* wana meet Sun, but i got project. hopefully next week got time.

Today start our GSM liao, Malay class quite fun la, but difficult lei. like Ta Ti Ta Tu when i speak lo.. Nvm, today oni first lesson.. Jia You Jia You Jia You!!!!

Beautiful Day ~

E flower tat we bought ..

Big Event for Meeee .. :P

Hee.. Luv e weather today, cool cool de, outside rainin but my heart is full of sunshine.. Wake up earli brighten up by msg and when i log in fb, my buddy tag a lovely song.. its juz like greeting me good morning.. :D

Friday is Ah Ma's 3rd year death Anniversary, Couldnt make it for e morning prayer but rush down after school to visit her.. Hao Xiang Hao Xiang Ah ma, Dunno she can hear me ma.. Tears fightin in my eyes, keep controlling it.. Time flies, Ah ma leave us for 3 yrs le, but I still feels tat she is still around us.. Ah ma, We ("v") Uu..

WooW.. hab been going out for e past 2 days, Sat went to collect my Nike Run pack, going for a 5km Marathon this coming 7 may.. Dont knw if i can make it, but this hab been e thing tat i wana to go for. Not wanting to prove anything,Juz a challenge for myself. :) So doesnt reali matter e outcome, but i wana enjoy e process. Yap, My mami went wit me to collect it, afterwhich we went to visit Ah Yee @ her workplace, She has been working there for many years lol, but we hab yet to go see her. Can see that she is happy to see us, though she is busy and hab no time to entertain us. I alwae thinks tat "Its not e Quantity, Is e Quality and d Heart". Went shopping around wit mami aftertat, can see that she is very happy, bought her clothes n be her maid that day, watever things she bought i carry everything. hahahz! So she is e taitai for tat day. Though i m super tired but happy as well.

Yesterday was Stef bday, went out to celebrate for her.. Went to have high tea and watch a movie.. Though juz a few of us, but can feel tat its a heart warming celebration. We bought her fav Sunflower also. :D It really feel great to see everyone around me, Happy and blessed.. Enough of all e fun, Today is gona be a super busy day for me. Feel so guilty loz, so much school work to do and i juz throw aside for e past 2 days. Today must work on it liao. Jia You!! Jia You!!

Good Friday ..

Today is "good" friday .. but to me, not good at all.. Home alone, everyone got their own programme but not me. One thing is becoz no mood also. Suddenly feel so emo.. 3 days of weekends.. but dont hab e feel. Yesterday bio dont even understand a bitz lol, dont knw how lo. wana get someone to teach, but dunno who. Sometimes i reali regret, Y? when i hab e chance to study hard, dont work hard.. I am a NT students, still Bu Zhi Liang Li de go take "O" level.. of coz cant make it. I shld knw how much i weigh.. very low morale now. keep pushing myself, but i am not sure how much energy do i hab to keep me going.. BUT one thing for sure.. I AM NOT GIVING TO GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT..
Jia You Jia You Jia You!!!! If i think i can make it, I definately can make it ... Chemistry Suan Shen Mo.. I juz nit more time and patient to conquer it..

NYP life ...

Today is e 3rd day school.. everyone around me hab been asking me, Hows sch? hows everything? I am still trying to cope and adjust.. At e moment, other than stress, lost and not leavin out BLUR.. asking me y stress? hmm.. school lecture is ok so far, understand wat e lecturer is teaching.. but .. start to give myself unnecessary pressure le.. Assignments and projects coming up.. trying my best to focus in class.. Today's lesson is @ 8am, 2nd time late.. make me so rush and gan jiong.. Dont like loz, spoil my mood.. prefer to be slightly early, but as mention, still trying to adjust to everything.. bus timing, getting around the sch and finding for lecture hall and so on.. hopefully, by next week i will or i should settle dwn liao. I am actually a person slow in adaptation, i nit to take some time to get close to a person, and also environment. So as far as i could, i try to minimise movement from one place to another.. Like my previous job, I stayed for 4 yrs before i quit n join my NITEC in nursing.. Hope God will guide me in my 2.5yrs in this sch.. :D

A lesson tat i learnt ...

Wah lao a.. I damn dislike those "Hao Hao Ren" lol.. Pls la, where got such a saint in this world unless u are GOD.. Pik Chiz de lei, Y he always hab to be like "So Nice" make everyone like him.. Let me make it clear..I am not jealous but Find it irritatin.. Trying to say nice words, be nice and "always tink of ppl" Crap la lol.. Its veri Obvious when someone is angry and doesnt wana talk abt it.. Then he still can ask : "What happen? What wrong? Pls la, U aldy know whats e cause liao lol.. Wana act tat u care.. Juz shut it up manz.. Frm my previous experience, If i start to open my mouth, I sure Kana BOMB.. so this time, I juz pretend nothing happen, Juz keep quiet.. And true enuff i save myself frm kana scolding unncessary, U may tink tat he kana rite? U are wrong, Will u scold someone u reali love.. No loz.. whatever it is, dont tink tat i am a hackcare person, No i am not! Juz tat i knw how a person feel when they are angry.. juz dont wana talk abt it for the time being.. otherwise u are asking for trouble.. e arrow will be aim at u.. Maybe e weather is very hot today, everyone is juz in e bad mood.. Wellz..

Orientation Day

Little Card from stef, So touched.. she gave me as an encouragement becoz i am startin a new chapter of sch life.. (tats wat i always say: Its e thought tat counts, not e value of e gift) :D tks tks

Waited this day beri long liao, but dont know y when it finally come liao.. like not excited liao lo. Had a super boring day lei, dont like orientation.. hahaz! yaya!! I am a boring person rite?! No la, i juz dont like this loz, sori to say.. i feel a bit bo liao, maybe its age ma.. hahaz! Now i reali cant wait for class to start this monday.. count dwn to 2 more days. So far so gd.. My class oni got 18 students, though small but ok ma.. + wat reali delight me is e time table loz.. a bit "luan la" BUT.. super hao de.. 2 days start late, best part is mon & tues.. then e latest timin we end is til 5pm.. wah say.. super shiok manz.. thats e PLUS point la, Negative de is e sch damn big til hor.. I dont knw how to comment.. free exercise everyday lo, hopefully can lose weight by e end of 2.5yrs..

Wah!! No joke lei, seriously gain weight liao.. Sianz manz.. all my effort gone. Cant stay at home de loz, keep eating junk food.. naughty gal, where did my discipine go to.. cannot cannot!! Kor's wed coming liao.. got to wear my princess dress.. hahaz! oni for that day i am princess lo, after 12midnight become ping ming(normal gal) liao.. :)

*~Be that light tat Shines~*

My New Luff ...

Wana get a Doreamon Cover de, But Bu She De.. So end up get my melody cover.. only $10 + $8 screen protector.. if i buy juz e doraemon de cover is $18.. See? with 18 bucks i get 2 things instead of 1. Must learn to Save liao.. :D Melody also Cute ma.. hahaz! (Self-consolation) :P Ai ya.. Tot Can get student plan de,but overage liao..:P becoz i need unlimited sms badly lei.. imagine i can use up to 2000+ sms per mth.. oh god! Now must learn to control liao.. BUT my plan got 200 mins free talktime.. hee! can use talk de instead sms.. :D

心情好好噢

Though today's weather is cloudy de.. But in my heart is Sunshine de.. :D Had a good Sunday which give me energy to brighten my mood. Had a good sleep as well.. Really sweet sweet dream, feel like dont wana wake up.. :P We met as plan, went cycling and take a nice walk at ECP.. Thank God, for such a lovely weather, though it started to rain late afternoon, But we had a great great time. He take me with his bike and we went to sing K together. I had a lot of Fun, hope he does also.. Never feel such comfortable feelin with a guy before, in front of him.. I can juz be myself,nothing to hide,I can say anything, dont hab to act "Shu nv"... :D whereas my previous experience, Guys would hab expectation,they will say things like: "want their gf to cook for them lah", want their gf to be sweet la" those stuff. But He is different,He got this "magic" to make me happy n no pressure.. feel relax everytime i am with him. Sweet moments like he will carefully watch me,n make sure tat i am safe wit him. Happy that He share with me his problem and unhappiness wit me as well. What is that kind of feeling ne? Dont know and mystery ba.. hahaz! Juz wana enjoy every min wit him..hehe! Not hoping for anything, Juz wana keep and maintain this relationship bet us. He is like my angel n a gift from God specailly to me.. God ah.. Pls dont wake me up from this sweet sweet dreamsss... :) ~True Love is only Mutual. Yet, it need not be expressed in words. When Love is True, you just feel it ... ~ ("v"v")

杜德偉 - 天真 (邱淑貞演出)

Jealousy ...

-Why does she hab to keep telling me, How gd is He? -Why does she hab to pamper him so muchi? -Why She put so much effort on him? -Why does she hab to praise him in front of me? -Why In her eyes, He is always the prefect / thoughtful one? -Why does he hab to act like a hao hao ren? -Why do my heart ache so muchi whenever i hear abt him? -Why does she tink tat I want her to praise me at times? (asking for it) -Why no matter how much effort i put in, i feel tat i am not appreciated? -Why am i feeling so upset now? She says that becoz i am jealous, but her topic always link to how good he is, how thoughtful he is, how hardworking he is ... Y? Y? Y? Y does he hab to act like a saint, and make me feel like a devil? Juz because i am more independent in first of them, no matter how hard i try, I can never compare with her precious.. (!.!) Y ppl can easily be content and xinfu? Y cant i be like them... She always say i dunno her, she treat us equally.. no bias.. She din know that by saying how well and how gd he is, reali hurts me. She can go til e extend to keep talking abt him, til I say tats enuff, I dont wana hear anymore. Dont she know how i would feel? For instance, Yesterday I wanted to drive to yio chu kang, but she insist to wait for him to wake up, and ask if he wana drive us to yio chu kang and told him that i dunno e way. In e end, He ask me to drive there. So that he dont hab to waste petrol to drive us to and back.. Then oni she say anyone drive is ok.. WTH lol!! Ur Son speaks One word more than I say 100 words.. Can U be more fair to me anot? Can I hab more trust from U anot? Its ACTIONS NOT WORDS.. Dont juz keep saying U trust me with ur mouth, Prove to me that U TRUST ME.. U dont know how ur words hurt me at times.. (!.!) tearing in my heart ..

Monday 4/4/2011

Busy morning, Went back to school to collect Eagles award.. lucky Kor juz came back from night shift, then got car.. so i use lo.. Yipee.. finally drive on expressway liao, pa always scared i not familiar, ask me dont drive on expressway first. today i manage to do it on my own, with esther.. after which we went to do our ezlink card ... yeah! next tues can collect both our student pass + ezlink liao, and we are all ready to wait for school to starts on 18 .. Guess what? I am e guilty one who make mami angry again.. Ya, always me de lo.. dont know whats wrong with her, suddenly the face black like bao gong then raise her voice at me lei, i also dont knw wat hab i done lo.. ???? sometimes still prefer to work, cant wait to starts sch.. if not i at home huh, got to tolerate.. if i talk back, she say i nvr listen la, bad la, nvr care abt her la.. stick to me alot lo, til i sometimes cant breath, i knw she want companion.. becoz she is alone at home most of e time, but at time i go out too often, she will start liao, not happy, face black.. say i always go out.. not at home.. but ... this will nvr happen to kor de lo, stil her precious ma.. she will nvr be angry at him de. Haiz!! Now dont even dare talk to her, wait kana frm her again, i then dont want. beta wait til her mood swing period over first. Sometimes dont knw what to do lo? She say i always dont understand her feelings.. then me lei? who understand how i feel ... *sad*

Sunny Sunday

Went to kovan with Pa & Mami.. for breakfast and do some marketing, This 2 days mami not well, having fainting spell again.. haiz! dunno wats wrong lei, hope i got xray eyes so tat i can know wats going on, Y she keep having this. Everytime go out must be very alert, reali pray that god will watch over her.. hope her health will improve, somemore kor's wed is getting nearer le.. Yeah!! they were juz talkin very long din go overseas le, so i suggested to bring them go HK this yr end.. Must start to save $$ le, hoping to go on my Bday or nearer to my bday, dependin on e sch schedule .. hope can go as plan.. :D so happy.. something to look forward to.. Jia you!! Study hard, Work & Save hard.. hehehe!

Bloggii Time ...

Today went to do rebonding , sianz lol.. waste $$, waste time + got to sit der for 4 straight hours. Sit til my back also straighten liao, backside also pain ... bo bian.. haiz! dont wana look like "Lion Queen", so hab to do ma. Wah.. e hairdresser bu ke qi de cut a lot of my hair lo, i say trim a bitz, she say my hair badly damage liao, keep also no use. Heartache manz. But hahaz, feel my hair so healthy now. Like e salon, service not bad wor, keke! other customer is one to one, for me, one to two.. maybe they tot i dun understand cantanese loz, they were speakin in cantanese among themselves, saying my hair so thick, if one person do by e time finish doing night time liao, but they were saying in a joking way la.. then i started laughing also and agree with them.. hahahaz! Reali feel like a princess there, hehe! Xinku them le, their hands must be beri tired.. Wow..wow!! Exactly 2 more weeks from now, school gona start le wor, dunno how is it gona be.. should i say excited, worried or nervous lay.. mixed feeling ba.. Excited coz my dream finally fulfilled, Worried coz i scared i cant cope, Nervous coz dunno whats gona happen.. Pu Sa Po Bi ar.. Hope this 2.5 yrs is a smooth one.. gona work super doper hard becoz very competitive sia.. Stress ++ ... So this 2 weeks, i beta enjoy all i want first.. Ai yo.. Think recently i pamper myself too muchi liao, bought a lot of clothes manz, keep tinking poly can wear, EXCUSES lol.. I beta see no evil when i go shopping.. No buying of clothes from now til end of e yr liao, but wait i hab to buy a night grown and a pair of shoes for Kor's wedd.. tats it! so happy and excited, its getting nearer and nearer liao, must make myself look like princess.. keke! This morning was telling mami, my BEST frenz Jiahui gona married next yr end, Drea going to get a new flat with her bf, mindy getting married next yr also... hahaha! Then she say "what abt u?" "when's ur turn?" I juz laugh.. dunno, stil nobody wan yet.. wah!! thinking suddenly gd frenz around me all got gd news lay.. Happy for them lo, give them my blessings manz.. :D

我终于可以松一口气了

Cooking Time .. Believe ma? Cooked By Aana Hor! hahaz..

Today is my last day there, finally this day hab come.. To tell the truth, i never tink tat work is tough, to me.. relationship wit co worker very impt. If you can work well together and help one another, work can be easily done. U dont hab to work like mad. Never had gd life everytime i work there, til now i still dun understand.. Y i still jump into tat "HOLE" where i aldy knw tat its there.. haiz! this is wat ppl call.. "Zi Tao Ku Chi".. After i walk out, i really can feel tat the air i breath is so fresh lol, feel so relief and happy. Can you imagine, i am so stress up til i din sleep well and hab enuff sleep everyday. Today reach home, slept e whole noon. Feel so muchi better. Thanks boy for e chat last night, not muchi words, but really feel comforting, Is really nice to hab someone wit me when I m down. :) Dont hab to talk about e topic but juz casual chat is enuff.. hee..hee..! Wee~ My Genting trip is coming, setting off on Sunday morning til Tues.. As i say, short trip can be relaxing and fun too, its a getaway.. (",)v

我很努力的想要笑..可是..

No Matter how hard i try.. I juz cant smile, maybe too many things happen le ba, during work.. I am really very tired, i felt tat i hab to use all my full energy.. Y am i doing this to myself? I keep forcing myself and keep telling myself to be strong, i cant fall so easily.. I reali feel like having a hug from someone, all i need is one sentence "I will be here anytime when u need me" I work so hard i also dont knw for wat? am i happy with wat i am doing? Y cant i be notice and treasure? I feel as if i am suffering alone lei.. no one care n bother my dead or alive.. Whenever there is problem or difficulty i hab to fight very very hard to protect myself .. :(( God ar!! Are you trying to make me grow stronger ... I hab times when i am weak, and need a rest.. Pls!! I dont wana fight alone. I am not sure how she think of me, maybe proud and selfish to her. Does she know tat i hab to clean her backside each time she make a mistake and i got to face her bloody shit face everytime when i try to correct her. God, Can i ask for strength? Can u give me more strength to hang on til this friday.. then i will be set free.. I will am never gona step in there again.

Recently, Kor also got problem.. its due to his car accident tat happen 3 years ago .. this incident has happen 800 years ago lol, who will actually remember this, moreover ... we hab even change a new car le, this stupid party come and find trouble again, look for lawyer want to find kor's fault. Rich ppl are not all but mostly bo liao de lol.. I reali hate rich ppl.. maybe both of us cant merge into each other's life ba..
What's so big deal abt having a lot of $$$ ... some things cant be bought by $$ de.. Can U buy love? Can you buy ur family? can you buy health? Can you buy relationship? Can you buy Care? Can you buy Friendship? Can you buy Time? Can you buy relationship? Can you buy HAPPINESS? If you tell me, yes i can buy any of e above mention wit $$... I dont mind working very very hard juz to get this.. but no!! w/o love, care or friends n family around u,even if u hab lotz $$,its is juz like a pieces of paper... (".)

No bluez on monday...

Today very happy lei, no specific reason .. juz happy lo, lucky no bluez today. Guess wat i was thinking of going for a holidays before my poly starts, came true le.. though juz a short trip, but its a good getaway, i only got $$ go genting lay, hahaz! ya will be going end of march.. Yahoo!! My doc today very funny lo, he ask me to buy lunch lay, then i ask him for e last time, he say nvm he dont want. then after lunch i ask him, doc u din eat ar? he was like, becoz u din buy for me lo, hahaz! then he keep repeating lei, make me so guilty.. end up he go opp buy bread eat.. keke! poor thing ..
Piang this few days so busy with e poly enrolment thing, til i gong gong liao. so many things to do, die ar! haben take passport photo yet, Not much time liao, this fri is e submittion,my god! so rush lay, somemore working. No time to do all this loose things.. stress manz! Lucky today after rush to go create my singpass.. piangz.. oni takes abt 2 mins for e fellow to create for me lo, make me go all e way down to SK.. y cant we do ourselves online. "shang now jin ar" Okii, now super stoned liao..